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Kay Forest Jun 2018
Can you feel me pushing?
Pushing against the wall you have built.
Annoyingly fighting every idea you have constructed
to justify the it.
Scratching and clawing at that wall to come down.

Can you feel me pushing?
Pushing against the version of you that you've created.
The you with the mass appeal.
The you that doesn't allow his heart to be seen.
Pushing and pulling the flesh from that version of you to watch it bleed.

Can you feel me pushing?
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2018
Emotions have a hold on me
Will not let me go
I wish I could end it all
You keep saying no

"You would leave me here?" You ask
I do not know. Would I?
Never want to hurt you
But it is easier to die

I cannot face life anymore
It is too hard to carry on
You are the only thing I have left
Every other positive aspect is gone

For you I continue to push forward
Another day I try, take one more breath,
I wish you would just let me
Succumb to the certain peace of death
Written 2-12-17

I remember writing this to my now-ex-boyfriend when we were in the throes of a crippling ****** addiction and I honestly did want to die I hated almost every second of my life, but he was the one thing that made staying here worth it. I could never leave my loved ones here lile that.
Veronika Sivka Jun 2018
Do your legs ever hurt
After running away
From all those who care about you?

Do your arms ever hurt
From pushing away
All those who desperately want to love you?
Lily May 2018
I love you but I
Cannot do all of the things
You want me to do.
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2018
You will not let me push you away
We grow a little closer each night
I worry about detrimental deficiencies
Constantly causing us to fight

My mood and mind change like a stoplight
Screaming red to calming green
Trying to outrun sporadic thoughts
I see demons repeat a ****** routine

Scared that perhaps these devils will win
I am learning that I have zero control
Chaotic wild wind in my chest
Leads to unhealthy sin; takes quite a toll

I try to withstand temptation
There is no faithful way
I give in to dark selfishness
Let failure take my drive away

Love to act crazy, that's how it seems
I am impulsive, naughty and nice
When I am upset do what I want
Turn colder than a block of ice

I might be rash, but your warmth teaches
Consideration early in the breezy morning
Persuading me to pursue patience
When I start unraveling with no warning

You swear not to suddenly quit on me
And you have shown me you are a fighter
I yell at you to leave me alone
You respond by squeezing me tighter
I love you so much thanks for putting up with me
japheth Apr 2018
no matter

how painful

everything

was for you.

keep

pushing

forward.

love the uncertainty,

be excited of the unknown,

challenge life

to throw everything against you.

after all,

you were able

to pull through

before.

now

you’re much

stronger

to push through it all.
i’m probably hyped right now and so thankful to finally have a place where i feel safe to share my thoughts.

before, i write because i’m sad, with a cigarette on my hand, i type. i type as hard as i can just to release the emotions i have inside.

i went through a hard breakdown a month ago where i felt like i was stuck. like i had nowhere else to go.

but i kept on telling myself to push forward. to take baby steps. after all, no one’s rushing me anyway — it’s my life and i should take control of it, so i did.

now, looking back, i’m thankful for everything that had happened.

it helped me be where i am now. even though i’m still figuring things out, at the very least, i’m somewhere. out of the dark place where i was before.
Andrew Ewen Mar 2018
Thirteen years ago, something changed.
It altered my personality and made everything a stressful decision.
I let fear take control and I became a shell of my former self.
I must admit; It nearly broke me.
The important word there is, nearly.
It didn't break me and I won't let it.
I control my life.
I will not be controlled by fear and negativity.
I have one shot at life, I will not take it for granted and I will push myself.
Whether it's by writing or raising mental health awareness, I will try and show that mental health isn't a life sentence.
There is help out there.
It does get easier.
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