Listen to you speak...
verbose and way too loud
incessant - speaking at me
or as if I were a crowd.
You often are pedantic..
like a pompous- preachy fool..
who'd really like to think
that he's taking me to school...
when what you fail to grasp
we can't avail No Golden Rule -
'do unto others as you'd have done to you' and this...
might sound upright-
of course...
if you believed it too.                                            
 All Rights Reserved * 2016 - Cherie Nolan

those fists of his
are strong enough
to protect me
and hold me tight
from the world
yet his arms
are so gentle;
he can carry me
to a sweet dream
like I'm home

I am strong,
Strong enough to take the beatings of the world,
To be burnt to death.

But you know where I'm not,
To see you get hurt,
Not even a scratch.

Stay behind me,
Let me get hurt for you,
That's how much I care for you

My chenille duvet covers me
Consumes me
It has swallowed me up again and let me escape
To a world where the bills don’t exist
My homework is finished
The dishes don’t need to be done
The cats are fed and fast asleep
My son obeys to go to school and listen to his teachers

My chenille duvet hides my reality
The reality that
The bills still aren’t paid
The dishes are still there
The homework keeps piling up
The cats are at the foot of my bed, begging to be fed...again
My son has yet again skipped school and tried to come home, not knowing that i am under my duvet

My chenille duvet allows me to feel no pain
It allows me to forget
Even if for a little while
Under my chenille duvet, the world is silent
My feet are warm
My mind stops racing
My heart stops beating as if ravaged through my chest
I can breathe

Every day gets a little bit harder to leave my duvet
My old ragged gray soft duvet
I long for you during the day

On the days when i am in class and don’t have my homework to hand in, because i am so tired
On the days i get a call from my sons school asking where he is, when i know i dropped him off
On the days i get home, and the dishes are still there
On the days i get home from a 12 hour day, and realize i forgot to buy cat food again
On the days i come home and cringe going up the stairs as i pray they didn’t turn my electric off again.

My gray soft fuzzy duvet, I miss you
Why can’t you console me all the time?
I don’t want you to leave me
I need you to stay and make it all go away

The sunset's engulfing the district
I'm fixing my shirt, prepped for the visit

I hug him at the pavement,
an infinite walk,
hands held, intimate statement

My palms are sweating,
mentally hard pressed,
asking myself “how”?
I’m staring at her now

Nothing else matters now
The field's all around us
and truly, it’s all about her now

The cutest boy that I have ever known
He’s closing in, and I hope
I’m no longer alone.

The prettiest girl that I have ever seen,
four-leaf clover is with me
right as I lean closer

I felt it.
The flow of his hair,
My arms around him
I’m loving the passion that we share.

I felt it.
The warmth of her breath,
touching her skin, I remembered
that I’d never forget

Did I disgust him?
No! I think I messed it up!
Try not to cry or react,
haven’t confessed enough.

A little bit of saliva,
a bit disgusting, really,
and my reaction upset her,
but I was acting silly

Even apologized,
the hurt was in her eyes
changing my tone and I kiss her

And in that moment, I was…
And in  that moment, I was…

Ready to grow her a garden,
keep her from looking dour,
so I present her a lily
at the eleventh hour

Ready to darken the skies
just to give him the stars,
and shine a light on this boy,
my angel from afar

Getting some dirt on my fingers
to hand her happiness,
steal the earth to give her the world,
make her the happiest

Take on the role of the moon;
the night sky at its darkest
can’t use its shadows against him
while I’m guiding him through

Now it ended too soon, but it felt like forever
Now it ended too soon, but it felt like forever

Made her a promise that time
will keep us here together

I’m falling for him,
If I’m being honest.
Wanting to be here "forever"?
He just made me a promise!

The kiss was worth the visit.
Her lips tasted very fruity,
least I’d proven that
cooties never existed!

A naïve girl,
Trapped in my crazy world
Many years later, a woman
dealing with daily hurdles

A loudmouth boy,
now a man of my word,
want to reclaim what we had
when that moment occurred

I’m missing him (I’m missing her)
I'm missing him (I'm missing her)

With that moment between us...

...I dream of kissing him.
...I dream of kissing her.

my dear don't
    be afraid to
    take flight and
    call out for help
we will and
    have promised to
    protect you,
    on our word
a samurai will
    and never will he
    abandon his orders
    *to protect you

..a poet's mind never rest.... except when it lies next to the heart that it protects