You were the number one my whole life,
You were there when I turned five.
We used to be best friends,
But everything someday ends.
We drifted apart over time,
You became more sour than a lime.
From heaven to war we went,
What was said I hope wasn’t meant.
I still love you and always will,
Even with all the bad you spill.
I stand tall when you talk,
Yet some words still leave me in shock.
I cry when the night comes,
The words hurting me are my mom’s.
Scared to speak to protect you,
Don’t have an opinion, that’s what I do.
Never give up they say,
Give it time for a better day.
She is family don’t cut her out,
But I don’t want to continue on this route.
I can’t fix things when you don’t care,
I suffer because of you’re how is that fair.
I don’t wanna lose my own mom,
Yet your presence won’t leave me calm.
Friends again just in my dreams,
It is exactly how it seems.
I write this to ease my mind,
To help leave hard feelings behind.
Only time will tell,
If we’re ever getting out of this hell.
Hope it is soon or I will quit,
But I will regret every bit.
First he left now so did you,
But he came back as I grew.
You left me because I am sick,
Became very distant pretty quick.
Now you don’t care at all,
All I have is our daily call.
We barely talk when I am home,
All the time I feel alone.
God give me a reason to try again,
I want to stop this deep pain.
