Before anything happens,
There's something you should know;
I am a heart breaker.
There.
Now you know,
Don't make me say "I told you so."

You may think me a player,
Yet that is not the case;
I may mess around a lot,
And
Not settle,
But that's only because I can't.

'But why so?' you may wonder,
Love has only hurt me;
Although there may be good parts,
It
Will always
Find a way to lash out at me.

You've put me in your doll house.
Plastic furniture
cardboard walls
Surround me. Smother me.

There are other dolls here, too.
waiting.
like me.
To be picked.

I see your hand come towards me
Finally. You pick me.

Your rough fingers curl around my waist
lifting me to what seems like an endless sky

My hair bouncing in the wind
my eyes looking at you
always looking at you.

We do what we always do.
Sit out by the water
you making jokes, me singing songs.
You caress my cheek
You kiss me.

You never kiss me..
Maybe this means something.
Maybe I wont have to go back

I see him stand
oh no
he folds up the blanket we've been laying on
please don't make me go back
I feel his rough fingers curl around my waist
let me stay

I couldn't look at him
the whole way back.
What did I do?
Was I a bad kisser?
Did he regret picking me this time?

He places me back into the doll house.
I look into his eyes, pleading, begging
for him to give me answers.

Instead
He curls his rough fingers around the waist
of the doll next to me.
Lifts her up, and kisses her cheek.

He's never done that with me.

I watch as they both disappear into the distance.

Every time I see him leave with a different doll,
I can feel my skin harden
my skin becoming shinier

He's transforming me into something I'm not
Plastic.

Maybe thats what he wants. Plastic dolls.
Dolls waiting for his attention.
Dolls at his disposal.

I don't want that.
I want to be free.

But, I want him to love me.

All I can do now, is wait.
Wait for him to pick me again.
To play with me again.

John is a player and I used to smoked him out,
burning to ashes throw it away like a *******.
you may say that more you smoke soon you die.
That is okay. it is just an opinion and it is from you.
At least I stand brave despite my life and killing several players,
All heroes are comes in packs with lethal label,
I just blow em off.

Please don't come to my ash tray !
smoke with me instead !

To the girl sitting at the bar -
surrounded by bodies, but you're still alone -
please see the beauty they'll see
before they ever ask for your name.
Your smile is addictive
like this liquid courage
that frees our inhibitions,
and lets a rat sing poetry
to a hummingbird.

They don't care,
but I'm sure that you don't either.
But a face that pretty
with eyes as clear as your
gin and tonic,
and their intentions,
does not deserve
the ol' college
Walk of Shame.

The damndest thing
is that at the end of the night,
all you want is for someone to notice you,
to treat you like
how the music makes you feel.

I would buy a drink and your time,
I would point out the way
you grab your earlobe when you feel

isolated

But this game wasn't meant for me,
and I've heard that you want a player.

Sweetheart,
they all notice you.
The more you wear,
the less approachable you are.
So I ask:
Please see what they'll see
before they ever know your name.

relationship is not a game of
player one and player two
but it is a team of me and you

I’m not a pile of shattered glass on the hard floor, beyond repair.
I’m a broken record that repeats repeats repeats the same memories of you

I’m not a river of silent tears streaming down a burning hot face.
I’m a restless night and a mysteriously swollen lip in the morning

I’m not a shaky voice on the verge of crumbling.
I’m a mindless ramble and a laugh that’s too loud.

I’m not the bitter taste of liquor on the back of your throat or the harsh feel of cold night air on bare skin or the glare of streetlights on wet pavement at 2AM
I’m an oversized t-shirt that’s probably not warm enough to sleep in when the temperatures at night dip too low, but it would be if you were here but you’re not and it was the only thing that wasn’t on the floor and I’m too caught up in you to clean up me so I’m an oversized t-shirt that isnt warm enough on its own but is trying.

And you aren’t trillions of shards shooting through my stomach when I hear your voice all the times we walk by eachother as strangers on the streets.
You’re a slight pressure on my mind, everywhere I go.

We weren’t anything of significance.
We weren’t raw throats or bloodshot eyes or holes in the wall.
But, neither were we a hot cup of coffee on cold fingertips.

We weren’t some tragic love story.

You were just a tired boy with nothing to do
And I was just a girl a little too high on hopes that were too high to climb up to and I fell a little too hard and got a bit bruised on the way down.

Now you’re just a memory of selfish lips.

And I’m just a broken record.

I blew a kiss and you smiled
Your heart shook in tremor
Won't you admit the vacancy?

It's like a field of football
Ball bouncing from sides
For whoever holds it wins

A repressive defence chains
Diseased denial cog wheels
Mind played, tongue slated

Sublimation of eager emotions
Compassed in all directions
Comprehended ridiculoupsity

Sinking stilettos drills deeper
Barbed wire erected to fence
A barricade of a no wait zone

Hedges cut, trimmed to invisible
No allegations stains to appease
Peace to transmute,a game changer

Sabi ng mga nag dodota may 5 kailangan daw ako malaman bago mag laro
Una
Utak, kailangan gumamit ng utak para matalo mo ang mga kalaban
Pangalawa,
Diskarte, kailangan mo ng diskarte para hindi ka maisahan ng kalaban
Pangatlo,
Malawak na pag iisip, kailangan mo nito para hindi kayo magkagulo ng mga kasama mo at para manalo sa laro
Pang apat,
Pag sisikap, kailangan **** magsikap para makuha ng inaasam na pusta o panalo
Pang lima,
Disiplina, kailangan mo nito habang o bago maglaro. Kailangan mo ng disiplina kahit alam **** panalo na kayo.

Naisip ko na parang pag-ibig pala ang paglalaro ng dota. Kailangan mo gumamit ng utak kasi hindi ka pwede magpadalos dalos kailangan mo ng diskarte para makuha ang iyong inaasam asam na babae. Kailangan malawak ka mag isip para hindi kayo mag away ng mahal mo. Patawarin mo siya at patatawarin ka niya. Kailangan mo mag sikap para magtagal ang relasyon niyo na kapag nag away kayo magagawan agad ng solusyon. Magkaroon ka ng disiplina. Hindi porket pinapayagan ka sumama sa mga babae/lalake eh aabuso mo na. Wag **** kalimutan na may pinangakuan ka ng iyong pagmamahal.