rolling on the floor
screaming the lyrics to 'funkytown'
feeling crossfaded
when i've been sober for months

the sun is warm and the light is liquid gold
and we can't breathe, laughing so hard
but this is the freshest air i've tasted in a long time

A light in darkness was your glowing face,
Maybe the spark who lit the candle of
Passion I had, brightening my nights and days,
With just an admiring and kind love.
Never would I forget your face for years,
You were my happiness, a simple joy
Who l had captured in my heart, the tears
Were blessings I would forever enjoy.
I could not grasp your soothing presence, though,
No – 'twas too far away for me,
The more distant you were, more did you glow,
Becoming a part of my destiny.
    I truly believed that it was Divine,
    Noble, because you could never be mine.

I just can't look into your eyes;
I know that when I do, I'll cry.
Oh, I'll try, and try, and try not to lie to you,
But choking on my tears, I can't stay true.

I wish you could be here with me.
I need your rhythms and harmony.
Sure, I can sing on my own,
But I'll wander still, never finding home.

Listen, you know I can't forget you.
Our duets will go nowhere without a venue.
I live my life to make you proud,
But you only ever seem to look down.

I wish you could be here with me.
I need your rhythms and harmony.
Sure, I can sing on my own,
But I'll wander still, never finding home.

I'm sorry if I've ever upset you,
I lie awake in a cold sweat for you-
Hoping, praying, pleading I won't make you mad,
Knowing full-well you'll just be sad.

I wish you could be here with me.
I need your rhythms and harmony.
Sure, I can sing on my own,
But I'll wander still, never finding home.

You truly are my best friend.
I never want our partnership to end.
All good things must come to a close,
So I hope you'll wave to me before you go.

You rang me.
After dinner.
Right after dinner.
I got happy, of course.
And I asked why you were calling.
You said you had to tell me something.

My brain, made the connections very fast:
You talked with him during dinner.
You left him.
Yes.
You left him.
The back of my mind was still calling me stupid.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him. Totally nonsense.

Still, for once, I didn’t listen to the sane and truthful voice in the back of my mind.
I was laughing,
Smiling,
And hoping.
I wanted it to be.
Please,
Tell me,
You left him.
You left him.
Tell me.
And then you say:

“I wanted to see you smile.”

Of course you do.
Of course that was it.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.

“I have to talk in a lower tone, because... you know... I’m not alone.”

Of course I know.
Of course you have to talk in a lower tone.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.

I say you are sweet.
You indeed are.
And I smile, and say:

“My heart is racing, and I don’t know why”

Of course it is racing.
Of course I could not mention why.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.

And you say that you love me,
In a even lower tone.
Oh please, I cannot even hear you.
He will not hear you, don’t worry.
But I understand, I do.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.

I don’t know if it will happen.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.
It will never be the right time.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.
You will never be ready.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.
You cannot leave him.
After all, it would be nonsense if you left him.
Because he would hurt.
He can’t hurt.
I can hurt.
You have known him for years.
It would be nonsense if you left him.
And you won’t leave him.

And that’s ok.

Has anyone ever told you
that you are the most endearing person
in human existence?
Because I think you are.

With your sacred motion
that spreads along my lungs,
with your pretty laughter during
an evident silence.

Haphazard glances at vivid rays,
and your verdant eyes stare  
straight at me, and I feel blue.
I try to hide my
lasting grief and fickle spirits,
I cherish you in many ways.

I keep in mind eternal summer,
eternal bliss, eternal souls,
and our names that changed.

The story's blessed by future prays,
you, my pal, and I
are waiting.

I will tell you something about
Best friends
And good people:
They just don't exist.
And sometimes
You are the worst one.