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Mark Wanless Jul 12
i am a little engine
of life
being one day at a time
blindly
i think i think don't know
my mind
don't know my true mind
i see
something else i twitch
scream drops
to the present here
i am again
where was in the moment
not remembered
bella Jul 10
Why didnt you take my heart with you?
sobbing so violently
my ache breaks
b
      a
              r
                        r
                                 i
                                         e
                                                 r
                                                       s.
windows b r e a k once the note hit me
where my hurt is out my chest now.

delayed-
but sumcummed to,
where my heart is only
ha lf.
sound is silent once i reach our home,
as
     loud
             as
                 my
                      tears
                               can
                                      be
                                           now.
But they cant break between
the b a r r i o r
of
dead and alive,
and im broken but alive.
ur
     dead
               and
                      broken.
ha lf
my heart with you.
if only he **** my art with,
i would be set free,
he and me.

Comfort in no more future possibilities.
a sore heart,
without he,
each throb burning.
i hope till theres
nothing left-
your only form now:
a
    s
        h
        e
           s.
my childhood dog died and it led to dark feelings :c
bella Jul 10
i had a dream last night and u died
i dont rememeber it very well
real life translated to my inner world
music was bumping and my favorite band was playing
a rush provoking scene i still hope will become real

it **** me back to the rocks
a replay of my favorite scene of us all
but this time we hid from the stage
we were led away from the show like fate

ive told myself this day had to come for peace of mind
my words that bounced in my head for so long
unhinged but abided

but now bombed u
booming like the music we heard before
rehearsed and chewed

premeditated

faint of thought my throat spit truth
we release from the rock scene
my heart bumping instead of the lyrics

now in the distance
i throw words at u
but u dont seem surprised
did u know all this time?

then punches
this burden i carried that i thought protected me only protected u
where now u look like cherry pie

no fork no spoon
speared across ur face
and ur neck tattoed
my hands forever printed on u

blueberry is my pie-
bruised and blue

my words didnt phase u

enginating something within me, a release
i takeoff-

im in my blue rocket
destination: homicide
it had to be 3 seconds i flyed
it felt like eternity

the rocket bursts and pieces fly
course breaths consumed the still air
this battle of burden
i thought it was finally over, atleast then it was

did u think i couldnt finish the job?

as u stab each broken piece into urself
u became more broken, disjointed
cliche cherry pie-choosing urself and im stuck with the consequences

i killed u to the naked eye
framing me
blaming me

relief when i wake, thankful for the experience of uncommon honestly inside
a sign that this chapter of thought has been closed

pages left behind and new beginnings to unfold
reflecting on this imagined world-
im left wondering who did i give peace to, me or u?

ur mind is set free and now mine?
racing, running-
infinitely in dreamworld
bella Jul 10
lots of leaves and tall trees
a blue house staring over me

a feeling alone, mocking me

orange sky and ease
angst building as the sun deepens

can i ever be set free?

from this cycle that witholds me-
recurring power to negativity and gloom

can positivity really be enough for me?

to keep rising again, through dark space-
only able to rely on me

light in obvious places, scares me
a trick waiting to point and tease

doors that seem to be js a push away-

yet i pull

im all in on the losing side of tug a war
once i fall only i can pick myself back up

fear in things that might not be as they seem
balance is key

lack of hope is what gets me
impending doom within me

romanticizing potential like a love novel-
too good to be true

neglect: a forever question of truth

unrealiable feel of belong-
only love can make me feel so small
BRIDGE

The bridge between our hearts
as fine as spiderweb threads
along it soldiers march,
workers trample, children skip
with ***** of light
cows graze, horses gallop

Between our hearts the bridge
is held by the Tree of Life
sung over by rain
its roots tangled
in the molten centre of
Mother Earth

Below it gurgles River of Intentions
on the banks rural maidens
with feathers in their plaits
play reed flutes
lilies grow in its crevices
whilst dragonflies sweetly hum

African mothers sing rhymes
whilst suckling fat babies
spiders delicately continue
to weave below trodden cobbles

I longingly listen for the trample
of your brown leather boots on
the other side of the bridge !

©GhairoDanielsPoetry2018
In the warmth of a Midsummer's day
He found himself shrouded by darkness
No ray of sunshine seemed to pierce
Irony of which he hated to say

His demons were fighting for display
For years he ran, ignoring his brokenness
Breaking points came and went
All of which bore a cost he didn't want to pay

Problems compounded, as did his fierceness decay
All he wanted was empathy and grace
Time would heal he believed
His old wounds rotting, never healing

If only he could come to terms with his own insecurities
He picked the scabs that needed care
In the Midsummer's heat, the cost became clear
No one could decide his path, nor were miracles his key

Should he turn around and face the sun
Would the war be won
No crusade concludes with retreat
Confrontation was his need

Not by knife or gun ablaze
But by actions, acknowledgement, belief
What more could he say?
Would answers come by asking another?

A fool's folly, facetious belief
His upbringing was not his burden
And his reactions were not excuses
As other's actions were their own

It is with hope he comes to terms
Accepting what has come and gone
For then true growth begins
A cautious hope came again

It was on this Midsummer's day
The boy became a man
With acceptance, his demons stayed
What was more was his change

Maybe then a ray of sun
Could evolve into healing heat
Comfortably warming this newborn man
Instead of scorching the neck of the son
i missed your voice

so i turned on the songs i always imagined you'd sing

on the corner of my bed


just to look for your voice amongst the others'

somehow i always find it
baby Jul 5
I often suffer nightmares
Recurring and tangible
Live and in color,
Except
Something is always off

The slightness is what haunts me
So subtle
This seems like deja vu

It is fall, and I can't feel it on my skin
Or it's night, but there aren't stars
I'm up high, yet not afraid
All the usual beasts are way too big
Or I am very small

Smaller still, the tightrope I walk upon waking
I pluck it while I fall asleep
I can feel the moment I drift away
My body loses tension

The slack lifeline scares me awake

All my friends here don't have faces
Blank spaces where expressions used to be
Yet I recognize them all
And if their questions are real,
And their answers make sense,
How can I tell who's who?

These things I wonder
Wrapped within the folds of my brain
Seared into my waking world
Weighing down my every effort

Are these things the right colors?
Is this voice still my own?
Who's touch am I feeling?
How much time has passed?

wake up

Someone's whispering to me,
But I don't recognize the sound

WAKE UP
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