Lonely
by Carl

Oh I'm tired of feeling lonely
lost my Girlfriend long ago
Oh I tried to cross the Cascades
but it comense to snowA

Im tired of being defeated
don't know when I'm going to win
I been kicked out in the weather
don't know when I'll get back in

I tryed to cross the ocean
but the waves they were too rough
I thought that I could make it  
but I found I weren't so tough

I'm tired of being disgusted
I will not be displeased
I thought I was half crazy
My mind it was diseased

I'm worn out and I'm tired
I can't catch my breath  
It gets cold before the Sunrise
I might freeze to death

I tried to find the sunshine on my darkest day
I walked onn in my sadness until deep into the night
I walked on feeling hopeless on my longest trip
I just kept on walkin, searching for the Light

I bore the heavy burden up the Mountain trail
They tried to defeat me
they all hoped that I would fail
But I just kept on clibin'
I knew I would prevail

We were always on a dark run
At night
Couldn’t see where we were going
That night

I held onto your arm
To feel close to your skin
It was never enough
Because you weren’t within

You weren’t there
You weren’t there

I held on and on and on
Just to find that you were gone

I was scared
I was scared

I held on and on and on
And you thought I wasn’t the one


In the snap of a camera lens
I see where we are and where we’ve been
No more running at night
More sense of the light

It’s looking really good right now
I hope I don’t find out

That I’m dreaming
Or you’re making a fool of me
I’m so confident that
You’d never do that to me

I’ve got no worry
Except the ones
In the back of my mind
But they’re not at all
Anything to pay my time

I am yours
And now you’re mine
I am safe
Holding onto your arm
Feeling alright
Goodbye to the **** that I felt
When I wasn’t enough
Goodbye to the things that we did
When our love was rough

It’s never over

We all have a fatalist

Inside of us

Teetering a tight rope

Trying to fight fear for a good show

Those high hopes

are defined by the lies of someone else

We are Brave despite what we tell ourselves

When the circuitry comes caving in

Separation is not an option—
just as they say
that giving up isn’t either.

Why do we have this tendency to end,
to not go on?

Why can’t we talk,
swallow our egos,
and try one more time?

The new is good—
but the renewed is even better.

The renewed has history,
a feeling of triumph
and resilience.

the stars speak to me
tiny glimmers of hope dotted across the
vast abyss of darkness
for they burn for millions of years,
yet light up not a fraction of the sky
but they persevere!
they persevere for the one who might find solace in their glow.
lighting up even one person's life
is reason enough to keep going
to keep living

I dig and dig,
Hobby one’s life, the specialty of few.
I keep digging till it becomes big.
It becomes hard what to do.
But I’ll rummage my way,
It is what I always knew.
Until that day,
For I have a clue.