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Jamie 5d
My therapist told me
I show symptoms of OCD
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
But I do not have it

My days are full of fowl
images
that spread through my brain

like poison
down the waterfall
of my mind

I hold my chest
and whisper goodbye
to my mother

Only I know of the
fatal accident
that will take her life today

I keep the thoughts close
like toddlers running off to play
If I lose track of them
They will become trouble

I'm used to these thoughts
they used to shake me to my core
they don't seem to anymore

I am scared
But I am prepared
I tell myself
Lee 6d
I don’t quite know,
where my bones go,
Or how my arm is supposed to bend.
The cold creeks gush,
Stung my fresh cuts,
When we went swimming at world’s end.
My eyes stare at words
like vege and meat
on a cutting board,
cutting each to meaning
                               sound
                            meter,
sentences and syllables,
my OCD mind refuses to stop
revving the gas pedal
on my 1991 Buick LaSabre
before doing donuts in the parking lot
of a shut down K-Mart.
Regrettably, I’ve never actually done donuts in a car. I have been in a car when someone made the choice…15ish years ago.
I have been alive long enough to know places that have gone out of business. RadioShack, K-Mart—and the first one—Hollywood Video. There are others I’m not even thinking about, I know, but I used to love Hollywood Video as a kid.
Yashkrit Ray Jul 22
OCD
Obsession gripping
Compulsion dominating
Total confusion
My skull's about to blow up.
Lee Jul 21
please let me walk in front' the mirror
please let me sit on the counter
please let me take my medication
please let me shower
please let me sleep
please let me call
please don't make me keep
scraping myself on the wall

May I be freed of the penultimate
Written on January 13th
Mariah Jul 5
If you come back to
find me dead, it's just because
I see what you meant
I won't
but I wish I would.
Jamie Jul 5
My therapist told me
I show symptoms of OCD
But I do not have it

My days are full of fowl
images
that spread through my brain
like water

I hold my chest
and whisper goodbye
to my mother

Only I know of the
fatal accident
that will take her life today

I keep the thoughts close
like toddlers running off to get into trouble
If I lose track of them
They will become the truth

I'm used to these thoughts
they used to shake me to my core
they don't anymore

I'm prepared for the worst
I tell myself
Mariah Jun 28
I am impulsive
I am strange
Lying in the bed I made

I am anxious
I am loud
I won't make my parents proud

I am restless
I am tired
I'm not one to be admired

I am obnoxious
I am trite
Burning bridges keep me warm at night

I am indecisive
I am sure
Enjoying what I haven't earned

I am curious
I am afraid
Cleaning up a mess I made

I am grateful
If I am at all
I have no regrets that aren't absolved
Your guess is as good as mine.
villiøn Jun 26
My thoughts unravel and spin,
Falling onto whirring gears.
They catch and halt,
Friction causing fire and chaos.

The flame lights every shadow,
and it seeps into every crack.
An agonising burn,
tormenting everything it touches.

Quelled by the winds from a whisper,
Embers flutter through a chasm of thought.
Chaos kisses uncertainty —
and it roars into destruction once again.

This fire is the essence of existence.
Chaos enraptured by uncertainty.
Shadows twirl in the solemn dance of beasts.
The warmth of passion,
The sear of pain,
The fuel that torments all that is beautiful.
Entropy entangled in an immortal bond.

I walk the path,
set in a blazing inferno,
Burdened by the weight of stardust,
With the toll of seeing too much.

Trapped in an infinite expanse.
Freedom entombed in death.

Madness consumes.
I am a witness to it all.
Madness consumes.
I am the bearer of it all.
Madness consumed —
I am the embodiment of it all.
Mariah Jun 20
Guilt, guilt, guilt
As far as I can see

Weight, weight, wait!
Its crashing down on me

Shame upon my name
Rehabilitate with blame

Change, change, strange
Things still stay the same
I don't know if this makes sense but I feel it anyway.
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