I saw the way you smiled at me
last Saturday.
At least, I think it was Saturday,
it may have been Friday
or Monday
or any day I saw you-
my thoughts are a bit jumbled.

Your mouth was full of words
that I have heard many a time,
but for some reason,
those words had a different meaning
than they had before.

I decided to stay quiet
about everything that bugs me
about you
and instead focus
on the bits
that make me smile,

because trust me

there are a lot of things
about you
that
I
love.

But that's not what I'm trying
to talk about here.
I want to talk about how
my words fit perfectly in my mouth
until I decide to say them,
at which point
they can never fit back.

I want to talk about how you
fit perfectly in my arms
until I let you go
and then you never seem to fit
the same way you did before
because something about you
is constantly changing.

It seems as though
everything about you
and everything about me
is jumbled.

It sort of reminds me of how
grains of sand on a beach
are all different shapes
and materials
but they form as one cohesive
"sand."

So how does that sound?
We're like grains of sand
on a beach,
or like a mismatched Rubik's cube,
all different bits and colors
and feelings
and memories,
but we're still
one being
each.

And maybe together,
we can be almost like one,
intertwining stories
and
growing into each other
instead of just growing
side-by-side.

And that
would give me yet another thing
to love about you.

**** this brain that controls my actions.
Send my soul to hell,
it may as well live there.
**** the body I loathe so much.
This ****** mixture of mind, body, and soul…
It’s such an *******.

All Again For You- We The Kings
You were everything that's bad for me*

Pheromone Cvlt - Letlive.
All the boys will grow up to be those broken men

Follow You- Bring Me the Horizon
So you can drag me through Hell if it meant I could hold your hand

Boston- Moose Blood
Bored with nothing to do, but lay around listening to Deja Entendu thinking about you..

Come Home - Tonight Alive
Laying under the light of the full moon and I would give anything to be there with you.

Drown - Bring Me the Horizon
What doesn't destroy you, leaves you broken instead

All Along The Watchtower - Jimi Hendrix
But you and I we've been through that and this is not our fate

Dreamers Disease- Letlive.
While I’m out here making history, you’re making love

True Friends - Bring Me the Horizon
Karma has no deadline

Better Off This Way - A Day to Remember
When will you act your age

The Divine Zero - Pierce The Veil
Maybe I can swim into your thoughts like your drugs do

The Other Side - Tonight Alive
I meant it every time I said I love you; And there are so many things I wanted to say, but I was a mess.

Lane Boy - TwentyOnePilots
I know a thing or two about pain and darkness; Who would you live and die for on that list

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot-Brand New
You say you wanted a solution; you just wanted to be missed

Your Guardian Angel- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul

Cardiology- Good Charlotte
No book that I can find has the answer, a medicine can't cure the fact that I'm still yours

All My Heart- Sleeping With Sirens
I could have been better and stronger for you and me

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City
*Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone; Oh if my voice could reach back through the past

you're blue,
i'm red*

& purple is my favorite color

By Arcassin Burnham


"Better"

Sometimes I wanna cry,
Your beauty is remarkable,
Do you ever think that I could be a gust of wind,
To be *** high from a huge contact from a friend
I met on the way here from the store,
I'll be your everything and more,
We could make good decisions for the better,
Ashes on the moon from the cigarette I'm not suppose
To smoke, cause me asthma made a truce or whatever,
So I'm very cautious,
Although I'm feeling nauseous,
I'm really into you,
Teenage love don't last as much as we'd like,
We're not kids anymore , from the gates we can
Soar or remain in a comfortable state of life,
Love me unconditionally,
Make love like Ben Thomas and Emily posa,
I can,
Be your everything and more for the better.

_________


"I'm Not Through"


As above and so below the barriers
Of what we stand for,
I'm not through,
Most people wouldn't know what do
With you and your exterior,
I'm not through,
Even the thought of you pesants having more,
I'm not through,
Rots me to the core,
I swear it blends the earth,
I won't be through until he says I'm done,
Run away attention ****** you no place
In my cauldron,
I'm not through,
I wasn't asking , I was telling you,
I'm not through,
But many would ask if they could
See the sun,
I'm not through,
If you think I'm horse playing , I have no
Problem with ever showing you,
I'm not through.

_________

"The Past Gets Harder"


Ripples in the waters of depression,
The fight is being taught to you , I hoped you learned your lesson,
I am not a man nor savior of your blessings,
I am just a kid with abilities that are growing,
Anxiety driven you to madness with family,
Everybody needs a little comfort , even the
Convicts in inner-cities,
The Past gets harder,
Filled with memories,
Y'all got enough of it,
But for starters,
The demons wanna see,
You put the gun to your head,
To end it,
Not A lot of fun,
Having a lot of enemies,
Gotta save my engery,
Have to fight for my future
And my Tendencies,
Artist with an ironfist,
Let me know your secrets,
I won't tell a soul,
I just read between your bones,
If you want some sympathy,
A passion for writing,
I could do exactly what he won't,
So just tell me,
Is it love you feel?

By Arcassin Burnham


"Summer Sad face"


I could spend this joyous day with you again,
Then again it's a three day period of what's to end,
Please don't pretend,
That you care about this season,
Enjoying palm trees and your Facebook,
Nike hightops,
But at that time around were crooks,
Stealing your heart,
Telling you to let your guard down,
Captain hook,
Clawing at the emotions,
Definitely a piece of mind they took,
You,
Could,
Have,
All my sadness,
You,
Would,
Be,
My queen of madness,

Just like Alice,
Card games come to life,
Babe I had it,
Driving force in my life.


_________


"Seeing The Glance Of A Girl"


tingly and sharp like thorns and vines,
Beauty needs no word or rhymes,
Character speaks for itself,
It says I'm chilling but I might be doing fine,
Take the soul right out of kids,
Just the devils bids,
On souls,
That could be kept in cold endeavors,
Captured from underneath like fishing poles,
Keep your mouth shut ! She's too clever,
Clever girl,
Pretty girl,
If my reputation wasn't ruined,
I would be your Superman,
Ambitious girl,
Candy girl,
I'd love you all to peices,
Til I can barely stand,

*I really wanna dance with you*

Heart and passion backs up everything,
Even when in chorus class she sings,
1000 angels just scatter,
Showing her devoted blessing,
I feel great affection for those green eyes,
Turns the tide,
Seven seas eliminated,
Chipted plates for frozen foods,
Let me get you motivated.


_________


"~how long~"


...and when they throw hate never turn your (back)
just notice that they'll always hit you (back)
and you might not ever get the chance (back)
but hopefully you figured out that,

...and when they throw hate never turn your (back)
just notice that they'll always hit you (back)
and you might not ever get the chance (back)
but hopefully you figured out that,...…........

Exactly What you call human contact,
Looking for validation,
Or just something ask back,
Preying to target someone,
Further approach to attack,
Scientists can prove this ****,
How long can you extract?

A theory to be LOVED,
A feeling to be ABOVE
A desire to fly like a DOVE

But I don't think they fly,
Oh yeah right ! They cry, duh.


__________



"Circling Through"


Made a u-turn into the pit,
Laid deception on my lap and read it a bedtime story,
Put it to sleep,
And the same with ignorance,
As blissful as that is,
Parting from my slumber only to hear knocking on my door,
Opening it,
And it reality,
Telling me how situations won't be as pleasant,
We all have different lives,
Just learning to circle through the antics of it all,
Taught myself the meaning.

I am an odd mix of things lovely and foul, tame and wild, open and guarded.

-s.n

by Arcassin Burnham


"Indeed"

Hide n Seek,
Hiding feelings for me so effortless,
I'm engaging on asking to one day get engaged,
if that makes any bit of sense,
I wanna stay inside you heart,
because I'm looking for a place like you,
43rd on elm,
In need to cure my weakness,
although its her,
She can't be tamed,
It needs no name,
peaches reside from the nearest orchid,
Don't know if the large amount of people can be fed the same,
cause I'm looking for a place like you,
yes indeed,
The closer the virtue , the easier the happiness,
here comes the sun,
lay it out on the decks and have some fun,
Fall for the love of the bee and stung,
I'm Seeing stars cause I'm hitting the ****,
I think i found a place like you.

_____________

"Joyful Noise"


Rubber Bands i picked out of my hair after knowing it grew a little longer and decide to pull the curtains from the windows,
I'm certain I'll feel a breeze when I Start stepping outside this door but I'll never know which direction the wind blows,
Can You show me?
It must be that time of the month because my sister asked me did i see any of her pads and i just didn't give a reply,
Those are girly things and i distance myself from them , instead of trying to find pads I'd rather die,
Now i mean , its clearly a sunday and church is starting early , if we wanted to go or not then thats our choice,
But i won't sit in there for hours listening to the holy scriptures and watching people chanting their joyful noise.
word!


_____________


"Rob­otic Frequencies (Emotion)"


TO SIMULATE WHAT IS CALLED DEATH,
SUCH SIMPLE CREMATION,
DEATH RESERVED WHEN YOU ARE BORN,
NOT MAny kids have their fathers around,
I'm more human enough to have a heart,
When someone else is down,
And any reason they might say the world will end,
But a hoax will be a hoax if you don't give 100 percent,
So if you ever need something,
I got so much sympathy,
I was always the one to show emotion,
BUT TO NEVER LET IT TURN ME WEAK.




_____________


"Most­ Of Em"


Suffocate,
Please don't come this way,
I'm wrapped up in embrace,
From distance leaves,
Guess its the fall,
I watched them as they fall,
And also took retreat,
Or maybe I'll just treat....
Myself to a box of decorative cookies,
My mom brought over,
To show her thanks,
And show love when I wasn't looking,
The sign says stop,
But I keep on,
There's no room for people like you,
Rather than to be eradicated,
Lies in my soul,
I'll take it,
Most of em wouldn't but,
Don't  know how the world turns,
Each day.


_____________

Once you learn misery,
That's it.

You can get worse,
But no one will notice,
Once you learn misery,
That's it.

Even the purest smile,
Never regains its shine,
You can get worse,
But no one will notice,
Once you learn misery,
That's it.

After even a drop,
Of those ebony tears,
Even the purest smile,
Never regains its shine,
You can get worse,
But no one will notice,
Once you learn misery,
That's it.

Nothing can return,
To its former shade,
After even a drop,
Of those ebony tears,
Even the purest smile,
Never regains its shine,
You can add more,
But no one will notice,
Once you learn misery,
That's it.

After the cold, brutal hands,
Of pain and death strike,
Nothing can return,
To its former shade,
After even a drop,
Of those ebony tears,
Even the purest smile,
Never regains its shine,
You can get worse,
But no one will notice,
Once you learn misery,
That's it.

There is no recovery,
Not for any soul,
After the cold, brutal hands,
Of pain and death strike,
Nothing can return,
To its former shade,
After even a drop,
Of those ebony tears,
Even the purest smile,
Never regains its shine,
You can get worse,
But no one will notice,
Once you learn misery,
That's it.

Once you learn misery,
There is but one escape,
There is no recovery,
Not for any soul,
After the cold, brutal hands,
Of pain and death strike,
Nothing can return,
To its former shade,
After even a drop,
Of those ebony tears,
Even the purest smile,
Never regains its shine,
You can get worse,
But no one will notice,
Once you learn misery,
That's it.

One escape: Love