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Hemyleigh Mar 29
"are you okay?"
she stares with a piercing shine in her eyes
heartbeat starts beating fast
look around
blackness surrounds me
I'm going down
words are rushing through my head like a river
thoughts in my head
but...
can't turn into any which word in the
shuffled dictionary that was my mind
It had felt as though my throat had been cut open then had salt shoved in the deep ****** wound
I was not ok
But how do I tell a human being that could never understand the capacity of what I felt into simpler words
Words that were like poetry to the mind of an ordinary person as words to a poet
How could I possibly explain that
Anger was fire ants crawling under my skin
Sadness wasn’t just a tear or two it was a deep hole caving my chest in letting my organs be exposed
Anxiety was my stomach being tied into a constrictor knot on my ribs and lungs and chest making it hard for one to breathe as though you were breathing through a capri sun straw
How could I possibly explain that the emotions I feel are more than just emotional
They are physical
How do I make someone who has never felt the exact way I feel without word vomiting all over them
Leaving them overwhelmed with words that could possibly never be understood
“Yes, I’m fine.”
KindyGifty Mar 7
One day, a man stopped me and said,
"Little girl, you are a shining star,
Lighting the way as you go.
People worship you, your star burns bright,
Bringing warmth to those you touch,
Leaving them with lasting peace".
"You bless the trees with your gentle grace,
Flowers bloom as you walk past.
Waters sprinkle their showers on you,
Rain joins in with its melodious rhythm,
Bringing a drizzle of joy".
"They will see your star", he said,
"Burning brightly over them
Little girl, you are a burning star"
I look at the man before me,
Holding my hand, smiling.
I didn't smile back—how could I?
He was wrong.
I am no star.
Hlelolwenkosi Feb 27
Pieces placed on my palms
As I try to rebuild what I've broken
With glue as my conscience
Of never keeping anything altogether
My TOUCH
Being the wrong ingredient in a well constructed recipe
I never had to take accountability
Was deemed as the suspect already
Gave birth to my fear of touching anything
As my guilt surrenders to each piece of broken glass
And sometimes I wonder if I really love him
Or I found some sense of belonging within him
An expirement of my capability to hold something safe
To find closure in knowing that for once I'm not the danger
No sight of warnings signs
Upon the close proximity of my presence
A young girl who was never given a chance to explain. Her clumsiness being her worst enemy as she has developed a fear of holding anything close to her. So she tries to eliminate the possibility of destroying everything and everyone around her.
Lumin Guerrero Nov 2024
Every
Birthday candle
Angel hour
Fountain coin
Church prayer
Dandelion blow

I wish for the same thing.
I'm still waiting for my wish to come true.
I wish that they would accept me as I am. As nonbinary.
I dread having to choose between their love and my happiness.
I wish they would understand
Hanzou Oct 2024
It hurts to know they think I used them, nothing more,
That I cared only for their bodies, and nothing at the core.
They never took the time to know the heart inside,
Now I wear the mask of a villain, with nowhere to hide.

I tried to show them who I was, deeper than the skin,
But all they see is someone playing a game to win.
They don’t see the care, the love I tried to give,
Now I’m just the one who took, while they relive.

I’m painted as the one who saw them as a toy,
As if I only sought to break, to use, and destroy.
But I am not that man, that’s not the truth I know,
I wanted something real, but they’ll never see it show.

Now I stand as the villain in their tainted view,
A stranger to the heart they never really knew.
I wish they’d look beyond the scars and what they claim,
To see the soul behind the name they chose to blame.
Dahlia Oct 2024
I gave my heart, so bright, so true,  
A fragile flame I offered you.  
But in your hands, it slipped like sand,  
A love you couldn’t understand.  

You drained my light, my warmth, my fight,  
Left me in shadows, void of sight.  
I begged for more, I begged for change,  
But you stayed distant, cold, and strange.  

You held my heart with fingers tight,  
Suffocating all its light.  
Each plea I whispered met a wall,  
As silence filled the space of all.  

You swore you'd learned the rhythm’s flow,  
That now, you'd truly want to grow.  
Yet once again, you held it wrong,  
And played the same, forgotten song.  

I’m left with echoes of your touch,  
A heart once open, feeling much.  
But now it's tired, worn, and slow,  
From giving what you’d never know.
Magi Candelaria Sep 2024
You say I see gray-blue-green
I imagine dance and feel gray-hope-ecstasy
How do I explain how color is emotion
Do we speak the same language?
             — Magi
Jellyfish Dec 2023
My family doesn't reach out to me,
All weight is on me to say hi.
If I talk too long, outbursts can occur
Contradictions leave me at a loss for words

They want a relationship with fiction,
An image; or story they see me as.
I used to try to fit the frame they made
But doing that lead me down a bitter path

Now I try to accept the reality,
Who I am inside is not enough for them.
When I'm myself, I recieve lots of judgment
Or comments that I don't understand.
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