On the day that my Daddy died
I went home for my last goodbye
Took my last walk around that place
Held his jacket up to my face
breathed in my last scent of him
thought about how I'd miss him
paid my last respects at his grave
thanked him for all the love he gave
Then I cursed my stubborn pride
because I wasn't there by his side
we had drifted apart with time
but he was always on my mind
I was stubborn, I was proud,
didn't say I was sorry out loud
That was the pain I'd always have,
after all, I still loved my dad
I felt guilty for many years to come
didn't want to face it, I'd rather run
But in the end, it catches up to you
and when it does, it still rings true
I had to choose to forgive myself
or live a life writhing in hell
I've come to grips with that pain
whenever I see my dad again,
I'll tell him that I was so wrong
I didn't know I didn't have long
I have learned lessons along the way.
I tell my loved ones I care every day
I know I'm still my daddy's girl,
that he's watching me from his world
I sense his presence time to time
He tells me he is doing just fine
I know that he has forgiven me
and that knowledge sets me free
I wrote this when my dad died. I still miss him.