Flare dewlaps just twice at the birds
Not sure if I know that it works
)She'll come back to me)
Green anole you were kind to me

Head with a tilt to scan
Eyes on a ceiling fan
Await awake
You feel no shame

And by glass pane
Drafted theory of pain
I learned what hurts the most
God please dont be a ghost

//
All the pennies that got sent
Was it time well spent
I never knew
You like how I do

The last words that she spoke
Oh father I'm the joke
I share your pain
We don't eat the same

On a slowride fleeting
As eyes drip drip dry
God I beg you please
I need that same release

//
Flock I hear soars by
I wonder if they cry
Like I do too
Clipped wings from me to you

Oh baby bird don't fly
Left me with a different kind of ghost
Not the one I need the most

moment of weakness, of carelessness
a scintillating sparkling spark and then--
"****!"

it all gushes out,
you poke and touch and squeeze
more. more more. addicted.
red brushstrokes in its wake, like Monet
wave the finger around to strangers!!

someone tells you to wash it off
the blood dotting the silver band, the written pages of scribbled font
not the right time, not the right person.
so they say, so they scrub with soap
--i'm taking it all back.

it stings now, doesn't it?
the shame, humiliation mixed in.
can't even twitch without the hissing pain
war veteran or loveless child
lethe, oh, lethe.

brush away the wilted petals from time to time
fine, it only hurts when you remember how
but the scar lingers--will linger.
as a teenager longs for soft eyes,
i do for you.

Gone is known as missing,
and my baby hasn’t returned.

That feeling of love,
the look in the eyes,
I’m missing it all.

I stand here and hold bare.
I fall close to the sky’s openness.
I’ll be let lose to find my baby
but by the years end I’ll be gone

The day the heart met, on that day,
Love sparked a brilliant ray.
Looked you in the eye, and told you
how much you meant to me,
And whispered the truth that set my heart free.

It was one sided, yet I loved you now and forever
Through every storm, we held on together.
I care for you still and I will forever
Through all of my time, my love will never sever.

I don't care anymore, I'm walking away, closing that door,
And leaving my love for you behind,
With a heart that's now free, no longer confined.

I hope you could see how much you meant to me,
And one day realize the love that never faded away.
I will always love you, and will always thank you for making me
the person I am today, Your kindness and care have guided my way.

I don't ever wanna fade away from you
I want to stay close, forever true.
So bare with me, and wait for me
Through all the storms, I'll set you free.

I will give you anything and everything you have ever wanted
To see your smile, I'll make all dreams uncharted.
I cant stop and wait for you, my heart beats fast, but I'll stay true.

I'm sorry you cant do anything about this, but I'll find peace, even through mist, and I'm sorry I couldn't have said this to you
I'd like to express my love and feelings for you through this way
With every word, my heart hopes you'll stay.

Sincerely, juujty.

In the flower fields, the breeze blows,
Setting the rhythm for a song that glows.

Even a flower that forbids company will rest upon the earth.
Just one glance from you,
Just one word from you,
What is a sky without clouds adieu?

I miss the fervor with which I used to write
I miss the way words would dance in my mind until the perfect combination fell at my feet
I miss knowing more than a few good cliches and metaphors
I miss the desperation I had to explain every feeling, to describe every moment, to relish in something for longer than I experienced it because memory fades and I need the possibly exaggerated details to grasp onto
I miss not feeling brain fatigue after writing two lines or reading a single chapter
I miss the overwhelming desire to see my ideas come to life and become something other than a vision that will haunt me before I go to sleep and become lost in nightmares and lost hopes and reminders before I jump off the cliff jolting me awake just to be surrounded by complete darkness when I open my eyes just like the true ending to the fall I was just shy of landing