Maybe I’m still young or maybe I’ve already missed the train
But I still want to dream about the future and my happy life
I still want to have children and teach them what I've learned
I still want to tell them my story and how I fought
When I become a mama
I will teach my son how to respect his sister
how to be a real man by his manly charm
not by his rude character
I will teach him how to express his feeling to the others
and there is no theory says only weak men cry
and there is no rule affirming that men are monster's children
I will tell him how it feels to be a heartbroken
How it feels to be rejected and ignored
How painful it is when someone shows up your heart in public when you never wanted it to happen
when I become a mama
I will introduce to my son my best friend miss distance
I will let him spend a holiday with her without my presence
I want to help him understand
the true meaning of love by this experience
that when we love there is no place
for doubt or boredom in our hearts
and wherever we go we still can take care of our lovers
the more we are far away
the more our feelings grow like a herbs
I will plant in his pure garden my sensitive sensation
and I will etch on his white brain my precious citations
Don’t be ashamed when you fall in love
better to feel like a fool in life
than guilty ’cause of your prideful side
when I become a mama
I will show my daughter my real face
and before I became her number one bias
I was made of glass
I fell 4 billion times and
I broke and I took time to heal my scars
I will teach her that girls have one mutual pride
and they all fight for one mutual point
is to be respected as a human not used as an object
and the irresistible female beauty
is living under their superficial vestments
and before making up her face
she needs to learn how to make up her mind
I want her to understand
that the equality between men and women
doesn’t mean acting like them
till she loses her feminine charm
but it means doing what she can do to build a strong personality
but never let go of her sweet charisma
just as her favourite barbie does
When I become a mama
I will help my kids find their way and reach their dreams
I will respect their choices and support their decisions
when I become a mama
I will be the person that I needed to meet
when I was young but unfortunately never found…

I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
for those heart broken nights I kept a secret
 I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
For when we had to stretch a dollar and I acted like I was full, but I really wasn't
I wanted to say I'm sorry to you mama
That during those times that you locked yourself in your room and the cried acting like I didn't know, I already did
 I'm wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
For not being the girl that you wish I was to be
 I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
Because my heart has been broken so many times and I won't dare tell you
 I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
Because the biggest secret I have kept is one that is hardest to speak
 I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
 for those nights that I locked myself in the room and cried silently so you wouldn't know
 I wanted to say I'm sorry to your Mama
Because you do not know the reason why those tears rolled down my face
 I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
Because you will not know that shadow of my past haunts me at night
I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
 That my ankles are chained to a wall of self-doubt and regret
I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
Because you don't know a man's words is what made me like that
 I wanted to say I'm sorry to you Mama
Because I have no idea how to say all of that