I feel the panic awaken in me
Like a tidal wave in my lungs
And a ticking clock in my heart
But then you pull me closer to your chest
And I remember
I am safe in your arms
You’re a sanctuary
A shelter from the storm
And wherever we are
I know that when I’m with you
I will always be home.

I need your heart
I need your presence
And all that aches within me
Is the lack of you
The lack of your scent
The lack of your soft skin
Your absence breaks me
It splits me in half and rips me to shreds
I’m missing a piece shaped like you
Shaped like the way you curl up when you’re cold
Shaped like your messy morning hair
Shaped like the electricity between two souls
Yours and mine
Heart to heart
Together forever
Even if miles apart.

I’m frozen like a traveller under an avalanche
Your touch is all that keeps me warm
The way you trace your fingertips on my arms
Or how you look at me when your hand cups mine
Your scent, your laugh, your being
It’s all too much because once not there
My arms are empty
My hands are cold
And all I feel is the scent
Of you missing
Of you not being here
And the glow of your presence
Being gone.

you are
the gravity
in my world,
and i
will always
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u

the type of love where i catch you staring at me. longingly. admiringly. the type of love i can feel, not only hear.

the type of love where i look over at you. my eyes become fixated. locked. my heart becomes warm. full. the type of love where i look at you. and i love you. i simply. i love you.

you meet my glance. with no words. you love me back. you love me back. you don’t even need to say.

You're this dull ache in my chest,
That never completely heals.
A dull ache
That's always there, throbbing quietly,
Waiting,
Pouncing on me when a smile decorates my face,
Or when laughter breaks out at my lips.
A dull ache
That wrestles with my soul
Until the smile fades,
And the sound of laughter ceases to exist.
A dull ache
That turns the air around me
Into a deathly quiet.
A dull ache
That brings back the smell of what once was,
Of what we once were.

though a stranger in my eye
i bowed to her demands without why
a young blood she was
entwined between my blankets
i was trapped in her love nests
my name she moaned softly slowly and slowly
killing me with ecstasy
she was here for me to nail
she was my night ****
my bare back she tore with her nail
as she arched her body up against her will
the moan turned to wail
as she urged me to go deeper
faster i gave her my stroke.


my whole body swan in euphoric sensation
as the bed rocked with our love rhythm
she whispered 'don't finish' b'cos i was doing
it just right
her hips worked on my body
like i was made just for her
i breathed heavily under her coitus spell
boring through me with her eyes
just made me nod in unison with inaudible ayes
her nail;s raked my back deeper
drawing sweat and blood
i cringed with  pain
yet she kept going she was on the gain
ecstasy masked my pain
turning my life upside down
away we faded
died and rose
bated breath
spelled our
sinful night