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DemonCrimson Aug 2018
You care for people who say they care for you. With your heart broken on your sleeve and a trail of tears left behind,  I walk the earth, head down, crying. I ask why it's not fair,  for people to be happy and you left broken.  All I wanted was for you to see the broken side of me but all you saw was someone to fix you.
Abraham Avalos Aug 2018
U live in denial
Instead of pressing refresh
U refuse to start over
Leaving behind all the cancerous mess
Instead u desperately wait
All night at the door
Knowing so well
She won't come through there no more
Tell me what will u gain
By living this way
Blinded by heart ache
U slip further away
Thinking now your the one
That must be put into blame
U can't seem to carry on
Everywhere that u go
U can't help but see her face
So u drown your sorrows
Every night after dark
Hurt from it all
You've lost who you are
Only to realize the answer wasn't there
Now your a mess & drunk
Completely lost in despair
But I know your helplessly trying
I see it within your eyes that constantly keep crying
Due to your heart aching pain
Broken down wondering how
It all ended this way
  
                                                     - Abraham Avalos
Journal entry #4

Ever since I started this dammned therapy, it's as if the flood gates have opened up within my heart.
All the memories of you I kept hidden are now breaking through. Destroying all the walls I hand built to keep you out.

These memories come in waves.
Some are brief.
Some are long.
Some are just glimpses of your handsome face.

But out of all of them, one in particular stands out.

We had rented movies.
All the movies you chose were action packed.
But I chose a romantic movie.
I don't remember the name, but I do remember the ending.

It made me cry, it was a beautiful ending about love everlasting.
And I remember looking over at you expecting you to laugh at me, but you too were crying.

I remember how we both instantly laughed.
It was then In that very moment,
(At the time)
That I thought we were sharing the same feelings.
That we were crying because we could relate to how much these two people loved each other, because we loved each other just as much.

I'll never forget how you pulled me in close hugged me, and kissed me and then said I love you so much.

And most of all, I'll never forget how we both wiped each others tears and said,

"**** this movie."

Lol
Rebecca Mar 2018
The ground you walked on made me feel proud to walk in the same direction, now I find myself looking backwards to see if you’re still walking behind me. You had sprained your ankle and you still walked miles to be with me, stayed with me, held me and told me that even when I looked like complete **** (which I did- you would say) you could still paint the sky with the color of my eyes. You brushed my hair behind my ears and told me that this life wasn't made for you. I wish I didn't read your obituary once a month.  I will never forget that night, being held and shown a glimpse of love from someone that claimed he would never know how.
Tyler Feb 2018
I never knew what real loss felt like....
Until I lost you.
A Mink Oct 2017
I’m not sorry
That I loved you with everything I had
That I gave you every inch of my soul
That I loved you more than I knew could exist
That I made love to you one last time
Despite everything that had happened

I’m not sorry
That I wasn’t stronger after we lost the baby
That I fell apart when everything had come together
That I cracked and revealed all the ways we were broken
That I could not be the rock for us
Even though you couldn’t either

I’m not sorry
That I was myself
That I would not walk on eggshells
That I would not be disrespected
That I had and opinion and a voice
Even though it made you leave

I am sorry for the pieces of me you could not love
I am sorry we ended when we said forever
I am sorry that we never got our family
I am sorry I let you down in any way that I did
I am sorry that love turned out to be conditional.
Even though I never thought it was.
Anthony Smith Jun 2017
The last chance has passed and she has left me lost and alone.
The driver sped through the light that he failed to see
through his high powered beer goggles.

The rest of the world runs on the same,
No one the wiser, no one to feel my pain.
I don’t know how much longer I can hold on.

I’m out of tears, no more grief, the time has passed.
Tonight I am slipping away without my anchor to
Tether me to this world.

It is time to end the suffering, stop the waiting.
I cannot accept that there will ever be another
As I fall to pieces; the lord caves his jigsaw into me.
V Oct 2016
I want to say that loving You was like falling,
But that would be a lie.
I want to say that loving You was like losing my breath,
But that would be a lie too.

I will say that loving You was like stumbling,
Completely unsure if I would be caught.
I will say that loving You was like suffocating,
I couldn't seem to breathe at all.

I won't say that I regret loving you,
But I won't say that I'd try again.

Loving You
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