'you’re the greatest love of my life', he said.
age eighteen,
wind in your hair,
going 80 on the motorway,
and you were in free fall
whilst he was laying down roots.

flash forward, and he was crying.
branches swaying in the breeze.
'you’re the greatest heartbreak of my life', he said.
and you felt a pang, a twinge, on your heartstrings
whilst he lay his heart on his sleeve,
your eyes dry,
whilst his were weeping.

flash back, to your hand in his,
swinging in the stagnant air of summer,
a light smile on your face,
a burning intensity in his eyes.
your laugh tinkled in the air,
whilst he gripped your hand tighter.
but it was hot, and your hand was sweaty,
and your grip loosened,
and your hand slipped out of his,
and his smile fell.

'you’re the greatest loss of my life', he said
over the phone, voice low and raw.
and you blinked and felt nothing,
whilst he claimed to feel everything.
didn’t he see, how couldn’t he see,
that you were nothing new?
i guess he never knew you at all.

to the present, to the now,
your eyes catch his across a crowded room,
a glimpse of the past,
a snapshot of before
before he drops his eyes,
and he raises his hand,
intertwined with another’s.
you float over the room like a ghost
and your ears pick up his words,
-'she’s the greatest love of my life', he says,
and he raises their hands,
he kisses the bunched rope of fingers and palms,
and she’s smiling,
she’s beaming,
and his eyes burn intensely,
and he roots his hand in hers,
and his heart shines out of his chest,

and finally you understand his words.
'you are the love of my life.'
it was wishful thinking, an affirmation thrown into the air,
but the wind blew and it struck the wrong person,
an actor who wasn’t up to play the role.

because he was wrong.
never the love of my life,
and the words echo now,
that I wasn’t the love of his,
either.
a breeze blew and hair flew across my eyes,
and his laugh echoed across the space between us,
and i smiled
and my chest ached
and my heart wept
but he smiled back.

Like the clouds
Running to be with the sun
Little did it know
That the very thing he desire will be his demise

And on his journey to the West,
On the pursuit of the light
So little he know,
That he'll be enveloped by
The eerie darkness of the night
Again

It's hard to turn the page to a new page
When our fav character is not there

No matter how brightly the stars shine
They can never outshine the moon's silvery glow
Yet no matter how long the moon shine,
She'll never have her own light
Under the silent veil of the night
Echoed with the songs of the waves
So freely as they flow
Over this wilted love inside my grave
Drunk from my own wine
Aching for a tale that never intertwined

I badly want to lie about going back to him
Because I wanted it to be you
So so bad
But guess what
I went back to him
While my heart my soul are on you
I close my eyes just to spend time with you
In my dreams
I daydream everywhere i go
Thinking you’re with me in this miserable life
Im mad
A lunatic
But every once in a while
I get to remind myself
That you don’t like me
I am dead to you
I hear your voice saying those words
On repeat
You take me for granted
You treat me far worse than your forgotten clothes
Yet my heart still hopes of your return
Wake up
Stop
Pathetic little girl
I love you
In a month
I found you in the ocean of people
But it wasn’t me you want to be found with
I wonder how long would it take me
To get out of this hyperfixation
How fast could i unlove you
Next month
Will it be next year
Will it be 44 seasons from now
And i wonder
How fast did you forget me
Thinking i am still inlove with my ex
Not knowing i only wanted you

Patiently waiting
For the day when I could finally hear
My heart beating without you

my dear
I love you
what else is there to possibly say
you don’t need it and I can’t give it
and so I bleed
you flourish
all is right in the world
and I have my love to thank

i feel like i drank too much coffee.
just a side effect of my heart strings pulling
trying to find you, even though i was the one who dropped you off
at the airport.

i got home feeling cracked open
no coffee spilled out
just 'i miss you's and lint

you left a t-shirt for me. i wanted something to smell like you.
i fear i will never wash it again

In the realm of my heart, a love so pure,
Resides a flame that forever endures.
A tale of affection, woven with grace,
I pen the verses of your timeless embrace.

You are the one, my eternal desire,
A muse that sets my soul afire.
In your presence, my spirit takes flight,
Boundless love, an everlasting light.

Through seasons of life, we journeyed as one,
In laughter and tears, our hearts were spun.
Through every trial and moment of strife,
You held my hand, the anchor of my life.

Your smile, a beacon, igniting my day,
Guiding me through the shadows that sway.
Your touch, a solace, tender and true,
An embrace that whispers, "I'll always be with you."

Through the passage of time, our love remains,
An unyielding force, amidst life's gains.
No distance, nor obstacle, can sever this tie,
For the person I love, forever will I.

The depth of my devotion, unceasing and vast,
A love unbounded, that will eternally last.
Through the universe's tapestry above,
You are the person I will never stop loving.

In this life and beyond, our souls intertwine,
A love so profound, divine and sublime.
Through the ebb and flow of each passing day,
My love for you, unwavering, will forever stay.