The clouds fall
I rise above them
Emerge from the haze uneasily clear
With heaven still miles and miles above me
But the soothing sedation belittled below
I wish I could
Go back to denial
Head in the clouds, lost in a daze
With a chance of returning back to a purpose,
The possible prospect of being rained down

I've been in limbo for the past year.
I can't let go of the memories
because I love him so dear.
He fills my mind like melodies
that I can't get out of me ear.
Like an awful but catchy tune
that drives everyone insane,
or a broken tape that keeps on
repeating and repeating itself.
That is what goes on in my head.
Memories that just replay themselves to no end.

Its an awful state of mind to live in,
especially when you are trying to build a new relationship to be in.
If anyone can tell me how to leave this state please let me know,
because I can't live like this anymore.

Too say that I love you would be too much...

Too say that I miss you would be too far...

Too say I want your arms around me and for you too pull me close would mean nothing..

What I want...is not able to be given...

What I need is too forget...but I can't...

As each day lingers and each night falls ...I slip into a darkness..

Much too dark to ever shine again..

All because you darken the dawn and prolong the dusk...

And in turn..you make my world become a silent limbo...