its like im invisible,
no one sees me
no one hears me
but that's ok because i know that everyone can feel me..

you can never please everyone.. or in some cases,
                                            
                                                          
                                                                   anyone...

nearly imperceptible changes to the inner life
slowly make themselves known in the face of light.

initially,
i thought i understood.
now,
i know that i may never understand.
-
what's not important are the titles we try to place on our experiences and
i know that the more we try to better understand or
over analyze,
the less time we have to enjoy whatever magic we can create.

feeding nonsense in mass amounts,
consciously feeding energy
to the entity,
the enemy.
the end of 3.

i was searching high and low,
for a sign
to stay or go?
shrink or grow?
think i know why they say that life is not for the faint-hearted.
i stopped before i started,
disgraced and then discarded.

its never about them,
they can't understand.
they can't see the vision,
they weren't there to see the plan.
the focus ever-growing,
moving up,
and always sowing seeds,
pure in deeds,
pure indeed.

while they're asleep
i'm at the depths with the demons;
exchanging playful threats and understanding feelings
and fears
over spirits and beers.

so you finally grew the ***** to make your move.
you set the mood,
do you have something to prove?
or are you searching for clues,
searching for flaws in the rules,
things you can use
to your advantage
in attempt to take advantage of the access you've been granted.
-
i let you in,
we drown in sin
and lust,
and trust me
i know your every move before you make it,
so when we're done
i promise you won't have to fake it,
we won't take it there.
and i don't share this exchange
with just anyone strange,
so beware.
-
don't panic,
ill hand it to you;
at least you attempted to try something new.
at least you attempted what most wouldn't do.
you left inspired,
full of hope and in dire need
of just another moment of my time,
indeed.

i can't succumb to the environment,
i've experienced many.
im not impressed,
you're not impressive.
i keep it cool,
controlled agression.
no possessions,
not possessive.
not obsessed with,
never desperate.
-
i fly alone,
although i have connections i can call my own,
i know my home,
i know a place that i can rest,
but still i roam.