Do you ever get that feeling
Like you're being left behind?
Like your friend is out there
Making friends with everyone he can find?
Well I made him who he is
Maybe not literally
But he's met them because of me
I caused my own agony
My own friend
My crush
Crushed my soul, once was so lush
He used to talk to me every day
Now, it's not even close to this way
We're drifting apart and he doesn't mind
He has new friends
I'm left behind
And he's friends with everyone he can find.

ocean, song of a dark
night, me so jealous
i weep.

I really don't understand
What you're saying
what they are saying
what anyone is saying
but I think I'm going to just listen

I keep trying to figure it out
but it seems kind of elusive these days
the sky moves quick from Blue to Grey

It's hard for me to understand the motives in your head
I keep repeating what you said
and...I really don't know why you'd say something like that
or do something like that
or even be like that...

Is this some kind of contest?
Am I in some kind of War?
Did I hurt you in some way
or someone else you loved before?

Are you jealous of me at all?
I really think that might be at the root
I'm not trying to make my horn toot
I mean... that is unless you're all in collusion against me?

Even if I apply Occam's razor and break this stuff down
and make it bleed
I'll see what I can see

But you know I've got these limitations
so it'd be really great
Stop your hate
if you could just cut me some
slack Jack
  
....then I'm sure we'll all get along just fine.

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I wish he'd write a poem about me.
There's a millions of people who might,
but he's the only one I want to.
Why?
I don't know..
Maybe I like him,
maybe I'm just pathetic.
Maybe I'm just lonely.
Maybe he's the only guy who's been kind to me.
Maybe I just get too jealous.
I think I'm special,
but I'm really not.
Whoever he's in love with,
I hope she's better for him than I'd ever be.
I'm just too jealous of a person.
I just want someone to love me.




*I'm so pathetic