Pain,
The stabbing feeling
That I experience
Day in day out.

Knowing that for
Three years
The issue has been
This the pain is unneeded

To stop the pain
These tablets, Painkillers
Cause more pain
Than they solve

The daily tears
The throbbing
Like a knife
Unexplainable
Unthinkable

A dance career
Wanted
No longer possible
Ended before begun

Emotions that I have no name for
Are free inside my head
They seep out my ears, my eyes, my mouth
I am blind, deaf and mute
All I am left to walk on are shards of glass and pain
Nor does my past remain with me any longer
I cannot grasp the smallest remnants, though I try
Tree branches support my neck
My head is tender and frail, it cannot be supported
I have lost myself.

i crush all of my thoughts-
seizing those fleeting-
and put them right back into me.

my arm looks like a mood ring.

green for envy
and blue for broken.
black and purple,
both pathetic.
yellow is yellow.

when my skin fades back
to it's dowdy, cloudy white,
i'll know
i'm numb
again.

no color, no feeling.