You need time,
but if I even say "you" it feels like "me".

I've seen the same course before.
We love
Then "you" move away.
Then you progress.
The rest of your future
I don't want to mention
because it will jinx my heart.
However, you kissed and held me
even after I thought we fell apart.

You're smart.
Not just in responsibility like I viewed my ex-wife
or scholastics like another.
You're smart emotionally.
You said, "I don't hold grudges".
You said, "I still care".
You're so smart I can't behold your whole heart.

Ah, now I see
you're like a forbidden love Madeline.
Pleasant in the realm of being you walk
but I can only assemble words of vanity
when you are gone on a walk.

Independence you are.
Lady liberty.

Why do I want someone who's needy?

I close my eyes & go to my happy place
And in that place there was me & you
But when I open my eyes and come to reality
I no longer see you standing there smiling at me
In you is where I found my happiness
Felt like all my dreams had came true
But when you left you took my happiness
And all my hopes and dreams fell through
My happy place became vacant of you
Thus making life harder to follow through
But one day alone in my room I thought to myself I could be happy without you
From my mind you faded more and more
The thought of emotions fading hurt me to the core
But I knew this is what I had to do in order to be happy without you
My love for you will never fade
But being in love with you was something that changed
I could say your name now and not cry
This is the most I've ever felt alive
I close my eyes & go to my happy place
And in that place is me
Living life to the fullest and finding happiness within me
I smile more and laugh more and its not cause of you
But cause I learned to look for happiness in me
Instead of happiness within you.

the hate
comes from every angle
but mostly from the heart
in spite of glaring
desperation
that leaves the
lawn uncut;
as if littered driveways
and starving dogs
justify another term
of stolen wealth

I am strong I say
I don't need you today
Love, too overrated
"I'm free," I stated

Relationships, a bore
Constant arguing, a war
Planning future around them
Then breaking up 8 p.m.

It seems pretty stupid
Worshipping this guy Cupid
Everything is now "GOALS!"
Love yourself first, poor souls

Though I hate to admit
I'm maybe afraid to commit
A slight soft touch I do miss
But not ever craving a kiss

Wanting comfort or hugs
Their absence presented drugs
I am perfectly fine, it's okay
Because I don't need anyone today.

So
I'm not
That independent woman
who doesn't need no man
In fact I'm feeling lost
though you my friend most boldly state
the truth that God completes
Something competes
it reaches first
and informs my heart of missing parts
Despite my fear in this debate,
it may soon be too late
as all contracts heap amidst the pyre
where Time burns
upon the Earth's last fire
mock marriage ends in conflagration
to be replaced by Consumation

She always had a way of standing above her circumstances.
Even in the way she dressed, it was like she was going somewhere better later. Yet above her logic and even above her poise she held within her a jar of emotion locked inside for the one worthy. The jar was hidden and no one knew just all that hid underneath the soles of her Jimmy Choo's. And my God she was brilliant, and my God she could make it on her own; but she didn't want to.

who are they to tell us
what should we do and what not
those selfish *******,
already living their lives
and they try to take away ours
by telling us what to do?

no they can't
I won't allow it
nobody can dictate my happiness