I'm still uncertain when I have to help others.
My mind tells me secret things
About them.
Sometimes I escape people,
I look away,
Like the Germans did
Towards the campus,
A university
Of injustice.
They thought they were smarter
Than Einstein.

Sometimes children
Acting out,
Teenagers being stood up,
A friend supporting another.
I have an imaginary friend,
He tells me those secrets,
And some wicked ones,
He makes me thirsty,
He makes my brain dry.
The teen doesn't know it yet,
He'll never be more than just a friend.

I walked a lone, secluded path
It began to storm
I huddled and waited for the roar to pass
Since the day I was born.

I listened for the rain
It screamed angry words
It tore at my clothes and
Beat me with hurt.

I saw a girl standing
Leaning against a tree
I was awed by her calmness
And who she might be.

I approached her
Rather timidly
Because she was steadfast
And I was unsteady.

She saw me looking
And her eyes beckoned me
So I dashed through the rain
Rather oafishly.

'The rhythm is soothing'
She remarked nonchalantly
I watched her lips move
And stood listening.

‘What brings you here?’
She asked me.
I told her my life story;
She warmly embraced me.

I wanted to kiss her
But I was too shy
My plans had so suddenly
Went awry.

Fleetingly, the rain ceased.
After four heartbeats
She kissed me adieu.


27th October 2017

Spots that are scattered
On your skin
Your shoulders are home
To alot of them
My lingering hands
Loves them so
The suns warmth
Allows them to show

I am sad when I wake up,
I am sad when I breathe,
I am sad when I eat,
I am sad when I sleep,
I am even sad when I dream.
Is there a reason for this perpetual feeling or was I just burn with it?

I fell that, I am slipping into a imaginary world. A world that will not let me believe it's reality. A world full of hope and dreams that comes true but for me that world does not exist. I only see reality at it's hardest. The way it breaks people or even destroys them. Some can bare the weight but others can't and get smashed by it.