#ill poems on Hello Poetry

Martin Narrod Nov 2015

You're back and I've only been asking four years and two days. My passion never left, it only paved your way. Outside it's gotten colder than the weatherman will even say. The skies may stay clear but everything is gray. I wait for you on the tarmac with bouquets, four years yesterday it was to be my grave.

Everything and its nothingnesses made me black and blue, I was just ink blotter on a finger's noose, nonsense and writer's gloom. Some of me was hexed by my work, some of my flesh became unglued. My eyes may have resurrected a figure, but I can't be sure it's you. I'm at the Bay Bridge with weights tied to my shoes, where even the water can't judge my moves.

People lie to keep themselves as far away from their truth. Many can't even talk to you unless they have a drink or two. ****** and benzos too. Skinny vexed spirits accrue, walking into the waves until their skins turn blue.

#abuse #lost #skin #writers #ill #sick #damage #loathing #pacific #baybridge

Ominous Nov 2015

Further & beyond

If you could read between the lines
you'd understand the language
of the red ones
all over my body
If you could see beyond your sight
you'd understand why
underneath my eyelids
the blues are permanent
If you could swim
and if I knew
(for sure)
that you would be
safe & sound
while diving & sinking
into the sea of my sorrow
still, I wouldn't let you drown
inside my head
because once I fell in there
and never came back.

#self #depression #sadness #dark #mental #ill #loneliness #gloom #safety

Destre' Oct 2015

Throughout the Storm, Throughout whatever

In the end
when the rain clouds have cleared
and the wind no longer blows
through good and bad
I'll be there

when things get hard and you're drifting
I'll grab you by the hand and guide you back to me
when you start to lose your balance and it seems like you might fall
I'll steady you and assure you everything's alright

I'll be there
through good and bad
when the rain clouds have cleared
and the wind no longer blows
in the end i'll still be holding your hand

when the mountains keep climbing higher and nothing's getting any easier
when you feel like you can't take another step
I'll be the shoulder you can lean on
we’ll climb this mountain together
you don't have to do this on your own

because what's the point in loving if i'm going to leave at the first sign of trouble
when your world has become a tornado threatening to be your undoing
and you don't know where to go
I'll do my best to be your anchor until you can find your way into the eye of the storm

In the end
when the rain clouds have cleared
and the wind no longer blows
through good and bad
I'll be there

I have no fear of this
I won't walk away
when all signs are pointing to a terrible ending
I'll take my pen and rewrite the story

When the sun shows itself once again
I'll be there holding your hand
through good and bad
I'm not going anywhere

Your anchor
your gravity
a shoulder to lean on
someone to rewrite this ending
I'll do what I can to be what you need

I'll be there
through good and bad
when the rain clouds have cleared
and the wind no longer blows
in the end
I'll still be holding your hand

For him.
One day I want to try to set this to music.

#alone #not #lost #be #thoughts #him #ill #there

Y Rada Oct 2015

I Know When

I know when life abandoned me
When dreams and the future slipped away
When the joy and freedom died

I exactly know the time when fear called
When confusion clouded my eyes
When loath lived in my heart

I know when hope and despair united
When tears fell nightly of shame
When love is just another word

The moment when secrets are revealed
The cure of it is nowhere to be found
When I found out of my chronic illness

#depression #hurt #ill #sick #confusion #selfhatred #chronic

Leo Oct 2015

gossamer ghost

so weak, so fragile
my gossamer ghost
sickly yellow
true, sick i am
bird-bone hollow
pray, stay
i have been alone
for such time
to leave
would be crime

#sad #lonely #ghost #ill #sick

Michael Cassio Sep 2015

Fenton, our Lord

Spice may entice a not-so-nice chunder
Nay twice, nay thrice, an undoubted blunder?
As he threw - as He did chew - we all foresaw calamity
Then we knew - as He did spew -
This is ******* hilarity

Inspired by the experiences of one Fenton four times after consuming the prophetic 'spice bag' and spewing on the majority of wetherspoons in dun laoghaire (four whole times). Also he was sober.

#life #ill #sick #our #***** #lord #spew #regurgitate #fenton #finton

Baylee Sep 2015

The Pains of Numbness

Painkillers intended to numb the pain
But they numb the heart from beating.

Administered to the ill and injured
Resulting in worse illness or injury.

An injury to the heart beat
To the collapsing lungs,
The vital components of life.

Without the medications,
The symptoms return
Full-fledged.

But with them, the ability
To function normally
Is absent.

The question at hand is
Whether it is better to suffer
From pain or numbness.

#heart #pain #heartbeat #ill #numb #lungs #injury #vital #painkillers #collapsinglung

Amelia Pearl Sep 2015

I'll stay

If you lie and I believe, just as long as I'm breathing, I'll stay.

And if you fall I'll pick you up and if I call you dont pick up I'll stay.

And if you're too moody to talk,
If I finally feel like giving up.
I'll keep in mind that I'm no better.
Its just one of those days.

But your lies were beautiful, they kept me intact.
They held me tight When I was being attacked.
And there's lots of people in this world, but you're an alien I know,
you're an angel dressed as a demon and I was the monster that needed healing.

I was a dog, alone and cold,
abused and scared of this big old world. But you were the light,
you guided me,
introducing me to prayers and anxiety.

#love #poem #anxiety #romance #stay #last #ill #prayers #longer #staying

Fishingintheseaofmymind Sep 2015

Alone

I sit alone
alone in my thoughts
alone in my desires
alone in my motivation
Alone.

I stare at a blank wall
a canvas as blank as my mind
so much complexity could be created with a flicker of paint
with a flicker of emotion
but such is my mind
Blank.

I run towards a prize I will never receive
my motivation unknown
my thoughts as jumbled as my laces
all I want is to win
a battle I never can
fighting for my spot
in an unknown place
Fighting.

A wicked wind stirs my thoughts
brings them home to me
I want to become alive
so I stand
I breakfree
I fight
I cover my canvas with layers and layers of paint
I reach for my prize
I live.

#broken #sad #pain #alone #mental #crazy #ill #sick #mad #wicked