When I close my eyes
And try to sleep
Attempting to rest
Letting my dreams meet

I can't stand the quiet
The unsettling silence
When my mind is restless
But the world is silent

My mind races
With ideas that aren't true
With visions that won't happen
With words that weren't spoken

But I lay there
Listening to my mind
As my body lays still
But my mind still screams

Why should I think
Of things that aren't true
Letting my nightmares haunt me
Dealing with constant restlessness

But you came
Unexpected and fast
I have whiplash from your kindness
Words I have never heard before

But as I lay there
Tightly in your arms
I feel comfort
For once I feel safe

My mind stays silent
Even without the rain
Without the fan
It's still quiet

Instead I listen to you
How your chest rises and falls
How your heart begins to settle
Even your sighs of contempt

Everything is still new
And I'm afraid
But when you just hold me
I've never felt this safe

I do not know what love is
Never having the feeling in my chest
But when I lay here with you
I feel I'm at my best

Thank you my love I know that will soon bloom

To the person who decides to give me their heart

I promise I’ll take good care of it.

I may take it out for walks a few times a week

Share some of my deepest darkest secrets

Laugh uncontrollably when friends comes on tv

And say goodnight before I fall asleep

But most importantly

I’ll be sure to thank the person who gave me their heart to hold in the first place.

And love them unconditionally because they’re also looking after mine

And that’s more than I could ever ask for.

You broke me into millions of little pieces

I am never going to be even close to who I was before

We both tried putting me back together

But I am missing too many to hold my guts inside

I just want you to know, you're one lucky person to catch my admiration for over 4 years.
I never thought I would still feel the same way about you over the course of time but wow, I'm surprised how I hold onto my feelings for you. There's never an us and will there ever be? But it's alright.  I'm letting you be with the one you're meant to be with. You're a great inspiration in my life. You inspired me to improve and grow more each day. I could not find more words to express these all but THANK YOU.

You have a special place in my heart if you only know and that I also wish to see you again.

chase the clouds away
anger in its wake
a hurricane, a storm
frustration takes form
let my rain speak
let it be gentle
but let the sky darken over it
let the waves toss ships
and let the wind destroy your home
let the cyclone
awaken your caution

but it's all in my head