I remember what we used to have
Hang outs,
On the couch
Cuddle fests
With nothing but your neck to nest
And nuzzle on the other’s.
Head rests
And hands link
Subtle winks
Nothing surpasses this.
But when you say what you said
And want to “take a break”
To me that means a rest
A rest from it all
And this was for your sake.
So i took the space
You needed
Feeded your mind and heart
With the gap holding us apart
So you could get the perspective you desired.
And a part of me admired you for it.
But now that you revealed
That youre back with him
I have nothing short of fury
And i want to bury
My feelings
And act like it doesnt matter
Act like i dont have a heart
I dont hear it in my chest
There’s no pitter patter.
Because now i feel tricked and empty.
You didnt want an end
And i stupidly agreed.
That taking a leave would be best
Little did i know
Upon my return, id be blessed
With the knowledge of you and your ex
reunited.
I feel slighted.
Because you didnt want a break
You wanted a break UP.
Because who ever wants a break?
She
Apparently.
Its a shame to me she didnt know the difference.
And didnt have the heart to tell me they were back together…
Until now.
And now
There WAS a break...
because We’re broken.
And i dont know how to mend it.

The people I meet
Seem like forgotten voices
In an old, long dream.
The sunlight on my skin
Seems like the faraway light
Of a ship disappearing at sea.

But the clouds, the clouds float by
Suspended chaos amidst the trees.
'Neath my torn feet, swirling grey and white
The mist has no form; shapeless, like me
If only, if only...

The girl you always see
Smiling
The girl always hear
Singing

But she's singing because no one will listen to her cries

She smiling because instead of reading a post card, she's reading her
Suicide Letter

You been hanging by this thread for so **** long,
And the skin of your teeth is almost gone,
Like walking on ice through a torrent snow storm,
Wondering to yourself will you make it to dawn,
Just relax it's not over yet,
In the casino of life sometimes you gotta bet,
If you lose big you should never regret,
Should you change for the best or blend in with the rest,
If your hearts hold many burning desires,
You hold the matches why not light this fire?,
Chase after your dreams untill you legs get tired,
******* your wings if you wanna go higher,
One step at a time just remember to breathe,
Atleast your closer to earth if your brought down to your knees,
The bright side is what you should  to see,
Live right now let go and be free.

Could you hold me up-
right, left to sit and stare
though your sifting smoke
columns like a spinal wisp,
wasting away time in your

beautiful lungs. I like to in-
hale the cast-away smiles
you hang over me, into me,
my mind lost in taste to how
your chest is as mild as May.