There you lay, under that deep down ground;
Peace, tranquil, serene, was you not me.
You told me once, that death was beautiful,
it was life, it was everything.
You'd rather choose death over losing it,
because it, was simply death itself.
So I granted your wish, your desire,
and soon silence overtook you;
and I, in chaos.

Holding back my tears from falling down
like a sunken ship in an ocean of tragedies.
Going somewhere that no one knows
like a falling star in the night-sky.
Never to see
always to be my falling
star.

I am so tired,
I cannot move
my life seems to have lost its groove

I cannot move on
God knows I've tried
But the pain simply wont subside

Look what you did to me
This is your responsibility

You were so selfish and  dumb
to your pain you finally did succumb

Look what you left behind
my life is now such a grind

I hate you so much for this
was this surely your last wish?

You know I lie
I could never hate you
I just wish I knew why

White turns to black
No other way then looking back
Memories playing the same Melody
Tears drawing a thought forgotten agony


The ground cracking under the feet of innocence
Holding on that instrument, holding on evidence
Trying to fight our own reminisce
A beating heart, purity, a perfect dance


Stained with mistakes of a filthy past
Puppets steered by the shadows we've lost
Innocence is not meant to last
A demon banned from the practice of his craft


Control is the land of the banned
Standing tall thinking we own the world
The cycle of time, drop dead
Control is the destiny of the ******

I'm grieving for a year that I held dear to me
For a year that taught me
That people will leave
But others will follow.
For a year that taught me that pain
Should be taken with a pinch of salt
And a shot of tequila
I mourn for a year of lost lovers
For now they have truly gone
A clean slate lays before me
But I wish that I could still hold on.
A year of fighting and kicking
To make something of myself
Or completely erase the things I've done
Thing's I've said
A year I made it to the hospital bed.
I mourn for a year I found myself
Found real friends and lost people I love
And now we move onto the next year
It's up to me now to make this one count.