with teardrops
on my face,
still i think of you

their scent becomes the sweetest
their skin the softest
& their eyes the most compelling

don't tell your boyfriend, baby...





















i'm your secret lover, come to me
touch my body and stay forever

I may be crying in the middle of the night,
Thinking of you every day,
loving you with every inch
of my aching body
but never ever
will I come back
and let you hurt me again.
not now
not ever

If you’re Jim Jones, then I’m the drinker of the Kool-Aid
I will nod my head in submission and act unafraid
I shall follow in your footsteps and bow before your feet
For I am but a troubled girl who lacks a self-esteem

If you’re Charles Manson, then I’m your ardent devotee
My life, a mere sacrifice, for the desires of thee
Your love and approval is my only mode of existence
For I know nothing else, but am fearful of your distance

If you’re Marshall Applewhite, then I’m your Bonnie Lu
This world is blinded by sacrilege and doesn’t know the truth
So as the comet passes, and we are greeted by our deaths
I will kiss your cheek and say “you were worth my final breaths”

If you’re my spontaneous soulmate, then I am but a victim
For your sudden interest leads to a dangerous addiction
In a few weeks you will disappear and I will question why
While you tell your friends that you’re a "really nice guy”

And I will sit and wonder why you quickly lost interest
When I was unaware of your feelings of belligerence
After weeks of contemplation I will come to realize
That I too was but a sheep, that was herded on your lies

without
a sound, you slide down,
poetic dreaming
screaming loudly.
I was so wrong