#generationalcurses poems

Kalliope 4d

I've got this blanket wrapped around me
While I sit here on the floor and I just can't shake the feeling- I don't want to do this anymore.
I don't want to be quiet, and mousey, and small
I want to be the kind of woman who can have it all
I want to wake up and embrace this pain,
I don't want it to trap me- make me insane
I want to say what I need to say, and live how I feel day after day
So many people I'm trying to impress and it's making my mind a horrible, unorganized mess
I'm drowning in these expectations, sinking in these rules- no one ever asks me what I want to do.
I am not selfish.
I am not dumb.
I'm done living for you,
And I'm done being numb.

I can't be the glue holding everyone together,
I want to have purpose not just as a tether

#reflection #anxiety #selfawareness #selfreflection #selfesteem #strength #generationalcurses

IsReaL E Summers Dec 2015

Columbus & I

Skeletons from my past
that haunt me leap from my closet,
Heart beating fast,
sinful things that I have amassed,
now my mayflowers mast.
Both cast & crew, planked eyes, 2thru which they view.
mutinous! venomous!
Now its down to the brig for the both of us. Couple Capn's in cuffs.  ...
What will await us on this new land?
Gold? Diamonds? If only!!!    ...  ...
Then suddenly unlocked for me
Was the prison we were sitting in
S'like I was a slave now free
to begin again. Now hate is not my sin even as the spiritual muses spew vile things as I exit from: within
the anchored vessel Wrecka'less
one. my faith has been tested, & second, lessons taught with a gun... make mans war's never won.
Go! Explore while there's still sun left!
Roll on cue (sonset)
curtains. exit stage left.

"history repeats itself" my dad used to say
Before he was admitted for chemical induced delusional disorder or something like that.

#freedom #depression #god #new #spirit #history #slavery #muses #imprisonment #generationalcurses

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