So they say:
I am diseased
because I’m different.
I am disgusting,
for I am distinct.

I am a widow on the wall,
a cockroach in the kitchen.
I am stubbed within the sand,
gouged into the grass.
You hold me in your index,
and huff me out your mouth,
for I, the English cigarette;
am a sickness in your lungs,
and the cancer beneath your feet.

I am black,
I am bubonic,
I am a plague.

They seem to fear my spread,
yet, I am pushed, I am prodded,
I am pummeled down to bone,
for I, the English cigarette;
am extinguished by your touch,
a light, and lifeless ****,
an easy target
caught between your malice
and the cruelty of your words.

do you hear the wind?
I felt my body shift
that night, that night
do you understand this?
I am perplexed by the impression of your lips
you strength of your hips
the firework bliss
do you require my fire?
I desire the flames of your kiss
the passion persists
do you understand this?

yearning until the dawn
waiting for the tears to come
the dam can only hold for so long
take a nighttime jog
waiting for the tears to come
backs will break after so long
pedal my bike to secret spots
settle strife stroking
pedal my bike to secret spots
unsettled strife poking

I need you the way the sky needs the sun
I need you here with me, hon
From you’ll I’ll never run
Our adventure has just begun

Sapphires in your eyes
They Show me no lies
In you, I am mesmerized
You brought to me clear skies

In what I adore
Whether not or more
Whatever’s in store
I’ll be yours, forevermore

She makes me insane
She’s in my brain
She takes my pain
All else is inane

I need her like air
I love her hair
I could not bear
I was despair

The Gods gave her back
Finally, I can relax
After that brutal attack
After he stabbed me in the back

I've got another chance
We get one more dance
I think that perchance
Aphrodite's lance

Has pierced me like the Nazarene
From deeds so obscene
Where light can beam
Where joy can ring!

i dont know how,
i am supposed to feel,
i am in love with you,
and i am sure of that,
you broke my heart,
tore it apart,
when all i wanted,
was ur love,
you made me look bad,
to all whom we know,
word got spread,
they all hate me now,
for what reason i ask,
u said,
its not ur fault,
we were young,
although your right,
i am the only one that got hurt in the end,
all this despise,
and all these mistakes,
have filled me up,
with anger,
with agony,
i wanted you to die,
but i couldnt hurt you,
the way you did me,
how the ****,
am i supposed to feel,
i am in love with you,
im hurt by you,
war in my head,
all the time,
confused on how,
i can feel that eway,
but still u said,
its not ur fault,
we were young,
although your right,
i am the only one the got hurt in the end,
all this despise,
and all these mistakes,
have filled me up,
with anger,
with agony,
i wanted you to die,
but i couldnt hurt you,
the way you did me.

Zeigst

Under the howling of the stars
Wrapping us in their moonlight desires
I was there in your time of need
Next to you on hand and knee

Desperation running down your face
You wanted me to be your saving grace
Screaming, crying how you wanted to die
You just wanted to soar and be ready to fly.

The baggage you held onto
It is the oldest of disaster pieces
In the end, I just wanted you to
Find a new kind of peace
Instead, you found a new kind of pain.

Sinking your fangs into my neck
I fell into your trap and took your bait
I wanted to help, I wanted to heal
But this boy you cursed won't die alone.

Another poltergeist added to
My haunted house
Another shattered glass heart

But this boy you cursed
I know he’ll never die alone.