people don't understand me
when I talk about you.
so highly, so lowly,
constantly changing my view.
saying how much I love you
yet how much you confuse me.
how we're happy, but heartbroken
& wonder why I can't just let you be.
but they don't see what I see,
they don't know the you that I know.
they haven't seen every part of you
& they don't see how much you grow.
the issues that we've had
the problems that we've faced,
how much we've both learned,
I could never label that as a waste.
you went through phases
as I did too
but every single phase
led me back to you.
it's hard to move on
it's hard to let go
when you're both still in love
man, it's so hard to say "no".
hard to say "no" or "bye" forever
when it always feels right
despite every moment of pain
I still dream of you at night.
I dream of what we've been through
I dream of loving & holding you
I dream of making you jealous
I dream of the things you do too.
you stayed because you love me &
I left because I love you, no past tense
you had to leave to be with me
remind me how that makes sense?
like trying to build a home
on an unfinished foundation
we had to tear the home apart
to prevent further frustration.
& we build our own foundations
filtered through loving eyes
aimed directly at each other
when will we realize?
we need to focus before we
leave these foundations unfinished again
because when they're finally done
we can start building that home again.