I’m so madly in love with you

I just want you to love me too

You say you do

Just please,

Render it true.

I can’t survive without you

When we fight I turn so blue

You don’t understand

No, you never do

Just the word

“Bye”

Makes me cry for hours over you

I know these are just words

Simply written in text

If you could just see the hurt and the tears

Running down my neck

The make-up smeared

In lines down my face

You’ll never hear my cries

You’re hundreds of miles away

You’re my knight in shining armor

Though you don’t believe this case

I care way too much

I cling to you

So there’s no space

No space between us

So we’re face-to-face

If only this were true

It’s just a matter of days

Until I take my life

With this pile of blades

I’m coming home my darling

Just please understand

I love you way too much

I can’t withstand

These days without you

Holding my hand

I’m coming home my love

This I have planned

I’m coming to see you

Just promise,

you’ll hold my hand.

I hate all this fighting

Because we’re apart

I’m coming home,

I’m coming home.

Together,

we can mend our hearts.

I’m sorry

For the days we fight

Just the thought of you leaving

Makes me cry in the night

My passion for you

Could never be for another

I will love you

Like no other

So even though

We have our ups and downs

We’ll work things out

And get around

The pain in our hearts

Don’t make a sound

Just think of me in the night,

then lie on the ground.

Look at the moon

And stare at the stars

Think of me

and know

That I’m not too far

I’ll love you forever

Just don’t forget me

Because even now

I’m still in need

Of your care and your touch

I forget

And I can’t see

If there’s any good left in me

Just don’t let go

If you still care

Cause my skin is thin

And I’m so scared

I don’t want to lose you

But I hate the air

I don’t deserve to live

And I can’t be there

I can’t be there and stay by your side

Even though I fantasize

About one day

Being your bride.

And even though you don’t want me

I just wish that you could see

What you really do to me

I try so hard to be happy

Because you said that you were

Proud of me

Proud of me for staying clean

When all I see is filth in me

And even as I hold these blades,

I think of you

and I feel ashamed.

You keep me strong

While I’m going insane

I really wish you felt this way

And I pour my heart out

day after day,

Hoping soon you’ll see the pain

Believing the tears rolling down my face

Knowing I love you

And that my heart breaks

Every moment that you’re away

I write these words

No matter what you say

I’ll love you the same

Either way

Even if

And when

You push me away

I’ll say,

“Okay.”

Cause I love you

And if that’s what will make you happy

Then okay.

I’ll still keep loving you

day after day.

And I just hope

you’ll feel the same

Just love the girl

That drove you away.

She didn't mean it.

She’s insane.

The start of the day look so bright, who would have belived it would end in a fight.

The clatter off glasses and the shout of "Who's Round?! All drinks were picked up and swiftly downed.

Moving on to the next watering hole, get there quick to watch the match winning goal.

The lads want more dancing, *****, Stippers but not before we stop of for Chicken Dippers

Intoxication is power or so we belived but a fight with what we thought were ninjas brought us down to our knees.

We picked up our injured and clean up our wounds, then move on to the next place so we could re-group.

Our ego's in tatters our wallets all spent, I think its time we bring this epic night to an end

We can build a house of cards, but with a misplaced whisper it comes tumbling down.

Shots fired I fell
I stand to make my case
But now it's become a race
For who can start the hell

I have no resentment
But it gets angry fast
How long can patience last?
I swore you weren't blatant

My heart is aching
My head is ringing
What are we doing
I'm tired of yelling

Pause.

Am I wrong for feeling wronged
I never heard a sorry
I'm beginning to agree
Maybe he was right all along

I make mistakes I know it
My anger gets the best of me
I try to say I'm sorry
But you won't let me show it

How could I forget
To my nature I am bound
When you're unwilling to forgive
I'm filling with regret

There is no relief
You won't let me say sorry
You sigh slowly
And say whatever with disbelief

We can stack the dominos, but with one wrong move it's all scattered.

Me sitting here,
you sitting there,
feelings between us of despair.
Awkward eye contact,
with impending doom,
tensions rise in the room.
You stand up,
I stay seated,
things are starting to get heated...
Then you stop and just walk away,
and now I must choose whether to stay,
I stay.

Guilt eats me up
Serving 'my heart'
as the main course

breaking at your
whole hearted trust
Each second hurts
Drink up my insecurities.

Wanting to be open
But can't stop now
Thoughts stuck within
No mouth to brain connection.

Put the moment on hold
Enough to make me squirm
My brain screaming
Come back later
'Do not disturb'

Shut down
Water, drown.
Severed connection
Zero detection.
Self-destruction
Darks *seduction.

I never understood the secrets in my house hold
in the place where your parents are supposed to hold your hand and guide you
all i got was scared wrist and glass threw
loud arguements nights of long crying and then denying it ever happend
the crack in the family's foundation breaks down to the weakest link
leaving them broken and wanting to be set free
so we find ourselves in pills , drugs, alcohol
to escape this place we call home
in a house full of people but all alone

I revel in our fights
Its the only time
I can pretend
Like you actually care
About me

There’s no marks on my hands from all the fights we’ve been in
Running mascara is the only black eye you ever gave me.
Your words cut so deep, but you never made me bleed
The scars I have are the kind you can’t see.

There is one from the night you left me
When you swore you were never coming back.
Another runs deep, from the day you let me leave.
You stood laughing as you watched me try to pack.

The things you say to me when you’re angry
Hit harder than any punch ever could.
You always knew what to say to hurt me
And it got me good like you knew it would.  

Now when I think of you, I feel nothing,
Only emptiness and pity where love once was.
All those tears I cried were full of memories
And now they’ve washed us away in their flood.