Standing in the midst of a war,
Chaos trying to threaten me,
But my soul will give no hell about it,
Instead,
The blood lust runs strongly in me,
I am not a prey,
I am no weakling,
I am a hunter,
I am a warrior,
I hunt,
I fight,
'Cause I am a Predator,
And a Fighter.

Dark Lady knocked so loudly, when she came for you my friend.
But you fought with her so bravely and refused to meet your end.
She dealt you blows so harsh and cruel, convinced that you'd give in.
You battled on regardless, tried not to let her win.

But death, she is a tricky one, and so it wasn't long
Before she had you in her grasp, it seemed to us so wrong.
She took you off so quickly, our tears they ran like rain,
Our only comfort, memories, and the ending of your pain.

To me, you stand as warrior, determined, fierce and strong.
You stood up to the Siren and refused to hear her song.
I carry you within my heart, my prayers, each night I send.
I'm sure we'll meet again, but until then sleep well my friend .

As I open my eyes,
I feel the pain spread–
faster than a wildfire.

Sometimes I let it consume me,
but tonight I will fight it.

You have the strength within,
and words of wisdom to share.

Your heart is heavy,
But you shine so bright.
Look for beauty inside.
You will survive.

I don't need your love...
I need consistency.

I don't need ***...
I need stability.

I don't need you...
I need me.

Spent so much of this life
Letting my heart lead me astray
Following girls that never really
wanted me.
That's okay
It's alright
I spent too many nights
Questioning my self-worth
I spent too many nights
Despising the way I look, I talk
I ripped myself from the inside out
And there's nothing anybody could
Say to me now, That I haven't said to myself.

Wasted a decade
Putting myself down
Put a stop to that now
I'm lighting up
Starting to see the beauty
Beneath these scars
Strong mind, Strengthened heart
Courage comes from the depths of my soul
Not gonna end up trapped in another hole
I got all my cards and I won't fold

Twenty eighteen
Is the year
I turned this life around
Dropped the baggage
Weighing me down
Now I'm floating towards the stars
Light as a feather
All those storms I've weathered
Nothing but past memories
Trapped in the back of my head
Where they can fade and be erased
To make way for new images that fill my eyes
And be captured in this brand new state of mind

This is a new sunrise
Yeah this is a new dawn
A new decade
To take back control
Of this runaway train
Not a train wreck, just yet
Now that I'm back behind the wheel
Starting to get a grip
Get back that natural feel
The way I used to be
I'm still a fighter
Now that I'm out of the trenches
Got all these pains on the back foot
I can breathe, just look

Wasted a decade
Putting myself down
Put a stop to that now
I'm lighting up
Starting to see the beauty
Beneath these scars
Strong mind, Strengthened heart
Courage comes from the depths of my soul
Not gonna end up trapped in another hole
I got all my cards and I won't fold

Twenty eighteen
Is the year
I turned this life around
Dropped the baggage
Weighing me down
Now I'm floating towards the stars
Light as a feather
All those storms I've weathered
Nothing but past memories
Trapped in the back of my head
Where they can fade and be erased
To make way for new images that fill my eyes
And be captured in this brand new state of mind

Stains covered my face
At the end
All these blood-stained sheets
That was used in the cleansing
Of my skin
Now I'm feeling free
Felt good letting go of the heavy load
Been carrying all these regrets and thoughts
For far too long
Never felt better to say, So long, So long
The relief you feel when it's all gone

Wasted a decade
Putting myself down
Put a stop to that now
I'm lighting up
Starting to see the beauty
Beneath these scars
Strong mind, Strengthened heart
Courage comes from the depths of my soul
Not gonna end up trapped in another hole
I got all my cards and I won't fold

Twenty eighteen
Is the year
I turned this life around
Dropped the baggage
Weighing me down
Now I'm floating towards the stars
Light as a feather
All those storms I've weathered
Nothing but past memories
Trapped in the back of my head
Where they can fade and be erased
To make way for new images that fill my eyes
And be captured in this brand new state of mind

©2018 Written By Benji James

I am a warrior.
Stronger than her demons.
Braver than the darkness.