Hurt and doubt revealed on my face
I recall bad memories in distaste
I remember hate in your expression
Your rage fueled my own aggression

This place coated with memories
Clocks are stopped and won't unfreeze
Hands endlessly stuck, seconds stand still
Beg them to move but do not think they will

Tell me how to bridge the gap
Separating you and I before we snap
Give everything I have to you
It is nothing compared to what you do

Problem is you still expect more
Feelings are different in my core
Trying to restore the glow obviously lost
How we once melted eachothers frost

I want more time to throw away
Do you still long for my presence each day?
As much as I would love to stay, I'm unsure
I selfishly want to but I'm frightened you'll get burned

Forceful ocean storm rages out of control
Behind eyes a tortured soul
It's sad to sit down and do the math
Discover we are fractions, less than 1/2s

Familiar smile I yearn to see
Share with someone better than me
Strange to think back when we met
Had no idea how close you'd get

Although we have encountered distress
The hard days were leading up to the best
Lately best is fading to bad
Scared bad will become the worst we've ever had

We are the secerets we keep
the songs we dance to in the kitchen
when no one else is home
the drunken kisses at parties
we told our parents we weren't going to
the regular nightmares that make us want to run

We are the things we want
when no one else is looking
the second slice of cake
the quiet lazy days we crave
all of the pet peeves
we still hold grudges for

To me you are who you were
in the park last summer
after two glasses of wine
holding hands while the light
faded out

Welcoming embrace
Warm and tender kiss
Feelings could never be erase
Now, but a bittersweet miss

Your fervent hellos
To out bitter goodbyes
Becoming mellow
Succumbing to only a sigh

We were bright flame
Until the fire thief came
Slowly becoming blind
Till we no longer bind

Your eyes were timid when I told you that I loved you
I'll admit, my heart was jaded before I met you
In a swirl of it's own misery
Darkest of clouds constantly consuming every pigment of light

How could I forget the the days you'd sit there next to me
There was a warmth in the way you'd pour soul into mine
You taught me the definition of "hope" with the way you wore that broken smile

Your eyes were timid when I told you that I loved you
My heart was open, hoping to find you
Like that song we always used to play
You were the melody that marked the end
Slowly, softly, you faded away

then
you were
the wind

now
you are
a star

once
just a
fleeting
fading
grace

today
a burning
spectacle
i witness
from afar.