by Ameng (2025.1.23)
(I)
Boredom soaks through my soul;
Dullness gnaws at my marrow.
Nothing holds meaning—
I only feel the world upturned,
Like a glass contraption—
The embodiment of time,
That flustering hourglass
In league with illusion and absurdity,
Seeking to grind me down, to crush me,
Till I become dust, a grain of sand,
Scattered into the unreal fiction
Of an abstract yet concrete existence,
Now but a mayfly devoured by time.
(II)
Neither forward nor back,
Segmented cause and effect weave events,
Splintering the whole of me,
Yet piecing me together in fragments.
In the void,
Time flows through my fading body,
Then swirls back in the ebb of consciousness.
(III)
Ah, this dull, hollow boredom—
It spreads, it swells.
Where is that joy,
Born deep within soul and spirit,
Rippling unbidden?
Trapped in a cage,
Upon the tower where time splinters and events converge,
How can I seize the fleeting spark of inspiration
Before it fades into deathly silence?
And how can I be sure my search from this tower
Is real, and not just a fleeting dream?
Ah, this hollow boredom…