first
I can see you from the distance
Ginger hair and tall figure
Then your arms lift me up
Close, my heartbeat fastens
Your voice reaches deep
Your pace is fast
Am I chasing after you already?
will you let me catch up
I see you look at me
Your eyes, a puzzle
What you’re hiding
are you with me, or else
far away
lost to me
we laugh and talk
time flies
moment flickers
disappears
you were mine only then

uncertainty
it consumes me
inside out
I feel my lungs filling up with doubts
I feel my heartbeat fastening like a drum on a summer eve
I feel it
All over my body
My head swarms with buzzing thoughts
Unwanted
Please
Leave me in peace

Yes, I built a boundless blue sky
For me and my fancies to fly
Countless cotton candy clear clouds
Flying in flocks like swimming doubts.

Yes, there lightning flashes thunders
When my mood do stupid blunders
Dropping snow, showering bright sun
In a day as mind wishes fun.

Pouring rain and swirling wind blows
When my thoughts and reactions rose
But my sky go moonless at night
As my eyes close ending star sight.

Yes, 'll let your ship fly my zone
When mind merges singing same tune.

I feel like I loose myself again
Just at the beginning
Two months, that’s all we have been through
You’re special to me, a gentleman to me
But why am I still in doubt?
I need time
I need space
I need to know who I was, who I am and who I’m gonna be
And maybe you are not an answer to these
Past, present and future
What is it gonna be?

My thoughts went to you when i woke up this morning
I see your confusion, i see your mindly fight
I see you being in the midst
of finding purposes, of achieving peace for inner mind

You have walked half of your journey on this earth
You have traveled across the globe
You have read thousands of philosophy books
You made those decisions majority wouldn't dare to try

But right now you are at the point
Of experiencing another defeat
another grief
And with all the doubts, hatred rising inside
You felt like you are hopeless
And that time slipping through your fingers
And you have no energy to confine

I wonder what life wanted to tell you through all this
Maybe, its time to slow down?
To look deep inside and to go back
to find your inner child and reconcile?
For i think the root is self love
the only dose to heal broken pieces inside...