I’m tired of the *******,
of the same ****** up routine.
I’m tired of saying this times different,
when it’s so obviously obscene.
I’m tired of the poison,
that I pour into myself.
I’m tired of the fear,
and becoming someone else.
I’m tired of the monotony,
of same **** different day.
I’m tired of not being truthful,
with every word I say.
I’m tired of not remembering,
what I did the night before.
I’m tired of acting like it’s ok,
that I should wake up on the floor.
I’m tired of the pain,
and the stress of it all.
I’m just so ******* tired,
of the black outs most of all.
How many years,
have I shaved away?
How many tears,
have I cried through the days?
This **** has to stop,
because it’s truly killing me.
I tried not to see that,
but now it’s plain for me to see.
I’m living to escape,
but the escape never comes.
It just gets ever shameful,
when I realize what I’ve done.
So today I’ll make the choice,
that I dreaded all these years.
I’ve broken something inside,
and lost myself among the fear.
I’ve finally realized,
so I’ll finally put it aside,
because what I have been doing,
is committing slow suicide.
So if you are reading this,
and you can somehow relate.
Turn away from Hells entrance,
before it becomes too late.
