Stick your fingers in my mouth.
Please.
Stick your fingers in my mouth.
Like I do.
Stick your hand down my throat,
Please.
Honey.
I’ll show you how.
To reach down my esophagus and rip the life out of me.
Like I do.
Mmm.
Just like that.

See? It’s not so hard.
Now do it again. And again and again and again and again.
Please.

She was my first love.  I wasn't her's.  She loved to lead me on and tease me.

So like an infected limb, I cut her off.

a very long time passed, my wounds healed, she texted me out of the blue.

I've never been good at resisting siren songs, even when I know of the dangers awaiting on the shore

Last night we met up for the first time in five years

We started out with drinks
at a bar in my neighborhood

She ordered us 3 rounds of tequila shots

More than the alcohol
Her smile makes me buzz

When she laughs it's like hearing an old forgotten favorite song

It was a cold and dreary night, but in her eyes I found a Hawai'ian sunset

After drinks
we went back to my place

This girl owns a key to my heart
She let herself right in and made herself at home

It was raining and muddy
and she tracked her mud inside

Doesn’t she know how long it takes to clean mud stains?

I just barely got her last ones out.

Now she’s gone again

I’m left with a muddy home
and that same empty feeling that I thought I had seen the last of

I wish I knew how to change the locks on my heart
so I could keep her out.

There sit the pebbles on a stream
From ancient depths and time unseen
Stolen deep

From mountain peaks
And laid gently beneath my feet.

If u love a person
It feels like diving in the Caribbean Sea on a big luxury ship with everything u need
But
If u lose the person
U don't only lose her
No.....no you also lose the ground under your feet
And before u can remark and observe
You find yourself underwater
You can't gasp for air
Your body feels numb
And everything is just a big wild mess
You can't even remember where up and down is

So
U might get yourself out of water
Your body still in the ocean but sad eyes looking for somebody
Somebody to help
And it's not gonna end there huh
Cause the waves keep crashing and crashing over you when you least expect it

But
U may also find yourself
Finally on land
Without expecting it

So no matter how hard life is
how many times u keep getting thrown off the boat
Just remember
That there will always be a land
So just keep on swimming
And remind yourself
that the more u swim
the better u become at it