The demons, they will come crawling,
Slowly but surely, in due time
My eyes will once more be bawling,
Partaking in victimless crime.

See, if I, the party of one
(As I've always been in my life)
Do consent to what I have done
Then there is no reason for strife.

Matters not where I brought the blade,
Or intent that I did possess,
Since they were choices that I made,
What I find to be great success.

My judgement is not always sound,
Not when those demons come crawling
To their whims I find myself bound,
I cannot resist their calling.

Catch me


This ain’t no place for a man to die.
I’m fading away; save me before I float into the sky.
For the very last time, I am all yours;
Stand up tall, I’m about to fall.
Catch me quickly and save my world.


I feel you looking into me
And I am left feeling naked.
Who are you to look right through me?
Take my love away from me; it is all I have to give.


I am the sort of person who can only write his feelings down
And never show you my true face.
I am the sort of person who doesn’t know how,
To do something that means something…what a waste.


I hide in the shadows lurking beneath the street
And there is nothing left here for me to feel.
I look at you and think about you chasing me;
Reality reminds me that will never be.
I’m calling out for you to hear;
But you will not, I fear.


You will not reply,
Because I speak in silence.
I wish I could try harder;
I do sometimes…
But mostly I just hide it.


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A pinwheel of desperation
Birds with leather wings sink into my skin
My suicide toolbox I wear as a party hat
Who decides what we want?
Who extinguishes the fire that burns inside you?
Afraid of touch, nothing to give
Words are weapons screaming at me
I'm living to die, dying to live
Can't catch a full breath
Just don't feel like me, pain obtained
I often wonder do words even come out?
Wrists bleeding, just a frail wallflower
I don't want to talk about it
It has been talked to death
I'm asleep inside my head
Staring at the stars I weep
Take my soul, take my secrets
I'll thrive on sorrow and heartbeats
I can't have anything sharp
Hide the pills she may overdo it again, once again
In the tub the water over my head, begging to drown
I'm found
Tried to end it all, makes me wonder what did I do wrong?
I did not even get a goodbye kiss
I'm in a mental health war
They say talk more
I disassemble my mind
Crying from hunger, sick of habits I can't break