someday i hope i can find a blank concrete wall on the side of an abandoned strip
of road like yellow hyphenated tape
perforated straight down the middle: you, me, a picnic basket in our cherry red convertible with
a can of graffiti staining the tips of my fingers black,
brazen instrument of destruction spraying across the
obscenely grandiose texts that paint the insides of our minds, excerpts from howl, anything from tartt, lyrical, aesthetic, so above our heads like the smoke on your lips oh
the road trip is the one line track to solve all our miseries;
somewhere we can just stretch our arms out to touch the wind, in and over and all the way through, somewhere we can stretch our heads back to feel the sun drip down, basking, soaking, heating and enveloping glorious warmth,
linearity mocking abstraction, with all the semicolons misplaced, all the words inverted, all the secrets unkept and blurted beneath the rustle of tall southern grasses and the smell of burning wood and light sage and the dark loveless sky, cold and everywhere
but we will save up swaths of the unloving night, tuck them in the folds of your flannel and the creases of your skin
all the while listening to something sad like matt healy on the turntable
tinny and distorted running out of our car speakers, scrambling for purchase on the cheap leather seats up and over and through
someday i want to keep a bag full of midnight dances and music
softly escaping on the sorrows in our hearts and the little whims we pray so much on
with a toothbrush and a change of clothes, watching as the glassy light falls, a flag on the ground, a foot pressed into it, digging past our lives, digging into the new america, paradise for pageant runners and paisley princes
in the garden, and i have not found so
in paradise we are found, and here we stand, two broken things next to each other. horror story twins, you the white, i the dark, running the whole house down. we leave with abandon. we live with abandon. whole, and then suddenly, inextricably, returned.
inspired by images and songs and a lot of random wishes
