Am I wrong for dipping my toes into these
depths before I dive?
Don't you dare tell me to love him when
you are not the one still coughing up water from
that last time you went headfirst into dark waters.
Love is a life raft on an ocean but honey it's to dangerous to
be dangling when you don't know how to swim.

Drifting through the moments,
always consumed within,
these moving wheels,
as my thoughts wander.

Escaping this dull reality,
I explore the boundaries,
of my imagination,
entering to conquer.

Lost in a single step,
I continue onward,
venturing into the depths,
of this familiar unknown.

Discovering myself;
though a small part,
considered to be,
one more steppingstone.

sing, magic sea horse!
          about marine depths
         about vivid day dreams     
             
                                   the song of the waves echoes at the bottom
                    shallow waters             pearl shells            rainbow ears

                  someone should tell the colorful depths:

                                 about my sighs
                                located                    ­  on the edge of the horizon
                                   resting in the arms
                                    of a hundred salty flowers
                                           swaying and dancing as
                       golden midsummer breeze
              runs through scented branches    

marine shrimps are running
               toward tanned ankles
            silver bracelets
               toward brown feet
                             bronze *******

       young boys catching their first fish

sailing boats gliding
    sea gulls

Sometimes, the depths of myself are hard for me to even comprehend.
The perceptions of myself reflect within each other.
The image shown is sometimes obscured based on the light...
Or the shadow that casts over it.

I found solace in your darkness,
I took on your hurt and made it my own.
When you were drowning so was I,
and I always got your head up before mine.

I wore my heart out taking on
every end of the world, every crash and burn.
My love for you became my duty,
I became your wall to hide behind.

and now I crumble under the pressure,
        now I can't find my light.
I cannot drag you from the depths
even though my love has tried.

I hope someday you find a love
that makes you come alive.

Tonight, I realized
That I don't deserve you,
And you don't deserve me either.

You look for pleasure,
I look for love.

You love yourself,
But I love you

Enough for me to get hurt,
Enough for you to not see
The depths of the feelings
I still had and will always have
For you.

In the depths of the night
there is light.

On the darkest of days
there also is light.

When love turns cold
when stars burn out.

When smiles fade
and shadow creeps

When hearts break
and fear fills us

There is light to guide us home.