i don't want to remember
i don't want to think
there is something inside me that
just wants to sink

i don't want to face it
i'd rather dream on
but i know that i can't if i want to
move on

but that's the question

do i even want to?

one thing i'm learning
...
there's a world of difference
between need and want

Let the fresh memories of our touches stay in the most vivid parts of our mind. For we too shall grasp it now and then

Under the skin
These feelings crawl
Thoughts laid bare
At your feet they sprawl

Endless emotions
Intricately dance
As the demons make
Their sullen advance

They tear down your facade
Of truth and denial
Drag you forth
Put your conscience on trial

There's no escape
When you glimpse your true blackened soul
It can consume you
And swallow you whole
So let down the walls
And lose control

Give all that you are
Not what others perceive
Cause you are so much more
Than you could ever conceive

Stop wasting your life
On lies and deceit
Or your life's lessons
You are sure to repeat.

Why did you have to write to me.
Pretending that you cared.
Why did you have to write after months of showing me you never cared.
That letter was absolute *******.
I loved you more than never! And you write me with smug comments and a distant attitude.
The truth is what matters and I left you because you became a liar.
Always and never, *******.
What a horrible thing to say to someone who never did anything wrong but try to love you past the pain you inflicted over and over again.
You will always end up alone because you are to blind and ignorant to realize you are the true reason to your own destruction.
Another failed relationship, one right after the other.
Now you can go ahead an add failed marriage to your roster.
You never loved anything in your life, and that is the real sadness.
One day in the distant future you will be old and alone and you'll have no one to blame but yourself.
That letter you wrote me was pure nonsense because you're still a child blaming me when you've destroyed the only real person in your life that ever truly loved you, looked past everything you did and tried to help you beyond her own pain.
That is real love I stayed for all the right reasons even though you failed to ever provide me with one.


I'm so ashamed I ever loved someone like you.

I have spun
                      
                My story
           from my own
web
of lies believed
                    by others
To be true
                  
           I am      trapped
                 by my self

I deny