You looked at me father, weren't my
eyes the reflection of yours, did I not
smile in glazed view at the words
misunderstood but still a vibration
of what I heard in the womb of mother.
Yet, just because I'm not of male,
but female without my choosing
you want me to be just a memory.
Like a conception of love was voided
at the moment of my birth.
Woven in a blanket, angers voiced echoed
I felt the taste of the air linger in
distasted tears as mother picked me up.
kissing my lips, her tears of
pain and regret I could taste.
But father had me now, I was in the cold
I felt his love dissipate.
Silence was his voice now.
Not even a gentle goodbye,
but like yesterdays newspaper discarded.
Tears cradled my face, not understanding
why this cold night grasped at me
more lovingly than fathers last embrace.
My expressions silenced as I ran out of tears.
I heard a mumbled voice,
not of father or mother.
But a gentle one of age, more secure in
the visible definition that I was a girl.
Holding me tightly, I heard others words.
I wasn't alone any longer, but what was my fate.
My daddy, told me the tale of my birth,
and the implications of what back
then seemed like weakness.
But I have shown the world, that no matter
your gender it still has equal worth.
The past is a scar that still hurts,
Never knowing my true family,
if they could ever have been called that.
But this family, this gentleman and my
my loving mother, kept me warm.
Now I'm older, old mistakes of culture
and religion are melding with modern
society, no longer are girls left to fend alone.
We are seen through eyes of love and compassion.
Not through the eyes of an abandonment of love.
