Heart crushing memories
heart crushing lies
I barely can write
as the tears overflow my eyes
pouring out

How do I get this feeling to go?
How do I feel better?

The feeling will fade for awhile
than
it will return
tugging at me
harder than before
tugging at my eyes, my heart & my soul
This feeling is painful
it makes want to dig myself a hole & stay for the rest of my days

I don't feel like life should feel this way
This tugging pain is binding me
blinding me
It just covers the joy I could have & makes me want to hide

The hole I want to dig
is just to get away
just to feel a little bit of sanity

The feeling leaves than comes back pushing me to the edge
every time it comes back
it comes back more intense
more real
Pushing me closer to the edge
Closer to letting go

Not again.*
Careful self.
Enjoy.
Wait.
Push.
Fall.
Can't stop.
Sigh.
Stop.
Cry.
Tears.
Broke.
Fears.

His eyes were like
clocks that stopped
spinning the moment
she stared into them.
The universe halted.
All things began to breathe
each others stillness.
To her: it was a simple,
blue, eternity.

Crush me,
Add another blow,
What will one little hit do,
To an already drowned soul.

Choke me,
Smother my bones,
What good is the body,
With an ashen soul.

Like a lot of people, I love music
Common sense, Lauryn Hill, Musiq Soul child, I need both conscious lyrics and something ignorant and hype to balance it out.
And I've come to the realization
that I've met neo-souls music's living personification

Supple and smooth and conscious at the same time
Melodic and nice to listen to, and she's definitely more than worth the investment of time
With a mind quicker than a .38 at a right wingers waist

Why I never bothered to try to speak to her in high school is a question so hard to answer my brain is gonna end up in space.

Sink

Drown

Smother

Crush

Break.

Just have a little,
Just a bit.
Enough to make sure,
The heart does not rip.

Faith is for the strong,
Thinking is weak,
So the heart must,
Continue to beat.

Do not lose hope,
Just carry on,
And wait until fate,
Will play its song.

"How is it possible that a person you have never met, can make you so happy?"