I've escaped cupid's clutches many times
I locked my heart away each time he came to say "Here you go"
He shoots his arrows at me, and I block them away
Except for a couple days ago..
My wall had fallen and my heart was broken
"Here you go"
Though I was upset about this, my heart suddenly restitched and I've fallen in love again
Now I feel like I've been sentenced to death
Each moment spent that I can't look into those big, beady eyes of his, I'd rather be dead
I'm just scared to get broken again
But, ****, his smile brings all of butterfly world into my stomach
And I can't stomach the fact that I'm plummeting into my own mind's demise
"He'll hurt you like the others" My brain claims
Yet, my heart says otherwise.
I've avoided cupid many times
However, I know I can't evade my fate
So, in this state of mind,
I'm fully bonded by this Boa constrictor of hopes and doubts
Or maybe I'm just overthinking
Maybe I should just listen to cupid for once

I am unfathomably heavy
Pinned down by the lead filling my body
Numbness seeps into my skin
My vision clouds over and sounds become muffled
My lungs are full of lead
I cease to breathe
It tastes lonely and complete
I am immovable
Dirt cascades across my face
Buried deep where I belong
Down in the burial grounds
Where my crushing weight goes unnoticed

“And after you’ve pushed away anyone who cared due to your crippling fear of getting hurt” He sighed and looked straight into her soul “You’ll look in the mirror and realise you’re the only one to blame for the pain inside of you”

I had a nightmare of you
You will never leave my house
Or be forgotten by the living
My soul is haunted by your fantasy
My life quivers from lips and eyes
Can ghosts recieve emotion?
A plane drives us apart; tangible or not
Even a ghoul has its perfection
Ghastly I cannot perceive, lust is blind
Gossamer shrouds have left me frenzied
The forsaken pleading for sanity
Release tendrils and leave me grave
Condemn mine spirit to peace
She vexes the dead with promise of living
Instead I am cursed with but a dream

Give me Love.
I can't tell if this is love or lust,
The constant thrashing of the sheets,
And the meaningless "I love you"s.
Give me Lust.

Give me Lust.
The way you look at me,
With those devilish eyes,
And that hungry smile.
Give me Pain.

Give me Pain.
Break my heart,
Just like you always wanted.
Smash me to pieces.
Give me Love.

The things I cherish,
come crushing down.
The feeling of betray,
come cutting down,
The trust been build
come breaking down,
Reason of saying,
the four letter words.

The world.

It’s suffocating.

It’s crushing my lungs.

I can’t breathe

In this world

I’ve had enough.

It hurts.

No air.

Every breath has escaped.

I can’t live my life

In this world

That I hate.