... That's when it hit me The light bulb finally went off They were wrong about hope Hope doesn't build It doesn't help It doesn't create Hope does nothing but destroy
And so I promised myself To never ever sell hope To anyone For the false hope you gave me Was the cruelest thing you did to me Right after you left.
(Just finished reading a lengthy journal entry/ poem by RH from years ago and I'm in tears. I guess she takes promises a lot more serious than I thought LOL. I was considering sharing tidbits of the poem but for now this is the ending.. Enjoy ~BM)
I want the night to stay its night Stay its blackness and dimness I want the night to drop its curtain To cover all the realm Where humans roar louder than beasts And do more murders than tigers I want no day come into light For hunters can see the clearest And blood looks the reddest Let the black sweep things down From the dreadful streets to the peaceful forests The world of fear doesn't deserve the light 'Cause darkness is sweeter than nightmare
She told me she's more than she looks But to figure her out you don't have to hit the books She'll twist you and say all the right things Be what you need but in the night what she brings Is not lust for you not passion or need It's only her insatiable heart breaking greed To call her a ***** would be too ***** She's calculated and pretty far too evolved for flirty She's a carnivorous creature of the night Hear her words but I pray with experienced might That this girl won't cross your path at any point in time For this siren, this mistress was a manipulative love of mine.
Don't let this girl fool you she's more than she seems and more trouble than she is worth. My Dangerous. Homewrecking. High school sweetheart.
Is it strange that I thought the world would stop? Was I too arrogant? To think my presence here me me! living alive would mean so much more? That it would stop for a second in acknowledgement? I'm dead! I thought I would matter more Heck! BE more! there has to be more significance I'm important! That my memory would be more searing that I would leave a mark a scar at the least Was I too selfish to think my death would change you? That your smile would never return because I was the reason you smiled? You should be sad for eternity! You're not allowed to smile! You're not allowed to walk on like nothing! You're not allowed to slowly forget me! You're not allowed to go about your life like normal! Why do you get to live while I have to lay six feet under? Am I selfish to think this way? Am I too conceited to think that I meant more? That the world would stop when I was gone? How cruel nothing happened My existence ends right there cut short and now I'm nothing but memory photograph video writing even though I died The world still turns it still turns
