Weight gain
Weight loss
I'm in my hypomanic period
I have insomnia
I'm hyperactive
But I get tired... I do a lot of things
I move around a lot
I know that soon I'll have my down phase
It's the phase where I sleep for hours on end
I eat and do nothing
I gain weight
Then it starts again and I'm a live wire
I stop taking medication
Medication takes away my inspiration
I'm a vegetable when I take them
I'm no longer myself
I used to be unable to manage my emotions
I used to have tantrums
Today I manage without difficulty
It's a rollercoaster life
It's going to be like this all my life
I have to learn to manage
But I can no longer afford to be 'unstable' for my son
So I'm doing the best I can
I love you all
xoxo kass <3

Time goes by slower

           When I'm Desperate
                        
                        To know what you're doing

Inside the insane asylum,
That I go to five days a week.
Straightjacket tight,
I can barely breathe.
Listening to all the inmates,
Contemplating all their mistakes,
I can’t even sleep.
They continuously repeat,
The same lines over and over again.
When is my reprieve?
Better be soon, before my mind turns to a ruin.
“Blah, blah, blah.”
That’s all I hear.
Their voices, drowning out,
Every other peaceful sound.
“Blah, blah, blah, blah.”
I feel the blood flow from my ears,
As I look to the ground,
And fade into the background.
Can’t believe I still have a couple years.
When I break free, will my fears control me?
Sometimes it feels like I’m surrounded by,
Sheep that would just follow the crowd,
Till they died.
Am I going crazy…?
Or is it just all hyperbole…?

con el corazón acelerado,
no es una opción el frenado,
ya que ha empezado,
este loco amor.

llena de dudas y miedos,
en este autobús,
yo te deseo y espero.

tu abrazo me hará sentir viva,
derretida por tus caricias.

Crazy how you turned my world upside down.
Crazy how I can’t think straight when you’re around.
“Interesting.”
Interesting. I want to shove the word back where it came from. Take back your words take back your hate. The things I’ve seen are not click bait.
They’re real, they’re here.
And sometimes they build into a deeper fear.
Never will I ever drown in the waves of you.
I will not let this form emotional glue.
I’ll hold myself together, I won’t stage a coo.
But sometimes I wish.
That I didn’t need to.