Self Sickening Species

Title
The Human Craving

The Gummy Decay
We Favour For Our Mortar

Our Truth-less
Mated
Clunny Actions

Sweet Tooth
We Solder On
Feening
Indulging Our Senses
Till Everything Is Flavourless

so there really is no end to this
faded snapshots, fleeting bliss
all i'm left with is desire
this my hell, and that my fire

archer shot too high and far
borrowed moments from the stars
now my time is free for all
never fall free from the law

my muse a slave, i sold my rights
in one too many stolen nights
moth to flame for city lights
a god has fallen slain tonight

cigarettes taste like you
and I've never craved nicotine
but tonight, I miss you

It doesn’t take long
It doesn’t take much
Simply an idle moment
A single flicker of thought
And it’s on my mind
Hatred
Loathing
Directed within
Then in the pain
The desires start...
For escape
For pleasure
For punishment
For intoxication
For blood
For sin
Maybe I need it
Maybe I deserve it
Maybe I want it
Maybe I crave it...
So I distract myself
Until it’s late enough to sleep
I can retreat to the dark
Behind my eyelids
Where I can’t feel pain

Sometimes I get stuck
And it's hard to tell if I'm ok
But I can always tell that I'm unwell
When I get the urge to talk to you
You do not help me
You do not make me feel positive
And yet I have this urge
To speak to you
To give you the power to hurt me
To give you the power to break me
To take me
To abuse me
To use me
Until I am nothing more
Than an object
Your object
Not a person
Not a set of feelings
Emotionless
Dead
Yet serving a purpose
Useful
Meaningful
Something a little more than
The nothingness I feel