Why did it became so easy for me to tell you that I like you?
No, that I love you?
Because life is short.
Terribly short.
It's like a fading Polaroid.
An hourglass with grains of sand that couldn't wait to reach the bottom.
It's like a kaleidoscope of memories that will keep on coming back when you're struggling to gasp your last breath.
I've been broken and choose to lock my feelings within but I just realized that in all the errands I have
And struggles away from home
I somehow managed to find you.
You.
The person that I am longing for.
The person that I want to be with, and I never ever want you to slip away again.
And so I gathered all my courage and strength to tell you that I want you.
That you're as important as the sun that brightens the day.
That you matter to people. To me.
That I love you.
That I'm terrified of losing you.
Yes, it is scary. It is weird. It is awkward to tell you these things.
But there is nothing more beautiful than feeling the moment and living in the present,
There is nothing more beautiful than letting you know what I truly feel, to let you know
That I want to put my ear on your chest to hear your heartbeat.
That I want to carry you in my back when you're tired from walking.
That I want your head in my shoulders when you've had a long day.
That I want your hands intertwined with mine.
That I want your lips in mine.
It is risky, yes.
Desperate even.
But I can't risk this one great thing of telling you how wonderful you are  and that I like you too much I can't even contain my blazing emotions anymore.
Because we'll never know.
I'll never know when the car is coming to hit me.
I'll never know when my heart will stop from beating
I'll never know when my eyes will carefully shut itself forever.
I'll never know when grim reaper's coming to welcome me.
I'll never know.

The human heart is worth about a million dollars
But you get mine for free
Not everyone can afford it
I'm not a good match for just anyone
But you get my heart for free
My whole heart
What a concept
Do you realize it?
How lucky you are
To get a million dollar heart
For free?
A heart that will always unconditionally love you
A heart that will always kiss your forehead to see if you have a fever
A heart that will always remember your tea order
A heart that will always do your laundry
A heart that will always wipe your beard clean
A heart that will always rub your back as you're falling asleep
A heart that will always laugh at your silly jokes
A heart that will always love you unconditionally
And you get it for free
You get it
Just because you show up to the party
You get it
Just because of who you are
A million dollar heart
For free

"I love waking up next to you,"
he says.
My eyes heavy
And heart full
I feel my toes wiggle
While he embraces me
And kisses my smiling cheeks
Our bare bodies under the covers
Dark and light
Wrapped up in each other
My flabby stomach
His toned thighs
My squishy sides
His chiseled chest
Euphoria washes over me
As he tells me again
That he loves waking up next to me
That he loves my little hands
That he loves my adorable cheeks
That he loves my cute smile
That he loves me

I was always cautious about using the L word
The word used after like
The big L
Because you can't take that **** back
Once you say it,
You can't unsay it
You can't unhear it

Then I found the L word
I found him
A milk chocolate man with yummy espresso eyes
A goofy, crooked smile that never quits
Tight, soft curls pushed back in a black mane
And a voice that floats on feathers

I found the L word
In between my fingers where he holds my hand
On the nape of my neck where he kisses me at night
Across my cheeks where he brushes his hand
In my mouth where he feeds me the food he's prepared

I found the L word while I was folding my laundry
While I was making us coffee
While we were talking about everything
While we were doing a puzzle and getting nowhere
While I was scrubbing his back in the shower
While we fell asleep in the summer heat under the heavy blankets

I found the L word at a time when I didn't think I would
In a person who wasn't supposed to love me
But did anyway
Despite it all

All at once,
it hits me that it’s been you
this whole time.
Like wine in a heart-shaped glass,
this love fills my heart
filling all the holes
others left behind.

Sure, I am just a passenger
in this story of your life
but each ride exhilarates me;
it rocks me to my core
and leaves me wanting more.
I always leave with a smile,
like we drove to the top of the world;
the perfect stop to drop me off
and let loose the butterflies
I collected along the way.