This sheen, it is a soothing glow of moonlight,
This night, it is a calming show of moonlight.

I ponder, thinking about the rosewater
Of love, seeing it in the flow of moonlight.

I see silver-wings in the waving waters,
Spread widely, as if it's a crow of moonlight.

I view something in my imagination:
It's smelling like lilies that brow of moonlight.

Is that an ode to moonbeams, that silver shape?
In the sky there's a bowing bow of moonlight.

Let's sway like the trees in the midnight breeze!
Silently in the meadow of moonlight.

The silence penetrates the lonely night,
Mâhî, that it is calm, you know of moonlight.

He's your only shoulder to gracelessly fall on
When the moon's light is gaining
The only one you're fine to slump against
When nothing's to find you carved up

That creature who gnaws through our sensibility
That we generally pay no heed
When the sky's glaring down at you
You can't care anymore
My legs dangle down from the same old fence
Yet I still see the same shadow

I'm sorry but it comes to a point that I dont want to live anymore
I'm always asking the same **** question "what am I waiting for?"

I'm trying so hard to be ok and trust me I want to live
But I'm giving it my all , I just dont got no more to give

I'm honestly tired of everything I already feel dead
I have a headache, I'm tired of hearing these ******* voices in my head

I'm calling out for help , but you cant see a hand when its reaching from the dark
You wanna know my story? Look at my body and follow the paths of marks

This world is ******* me up and I'm tearing myself down as well
As much as I run, jump and play I can't help to feel locked up in a cell

I'm really tired of the pain, I'm trying to be strong
But you cant tell a girl to continue fighting when shes been fighting for to long

Why continue when nothing changes, I'm just going to be in the same place
Yes I'm Gods gift to the world but I am sorry God but I just feel like a waste of space

I just want everything to end, I just want the pain to go away
I just want to walk around able to actually say that I'm OK

I just wish I can start my life all over and fix things
But no I'm just the puppet of my mind being controlled by strings

God I am begging you to please help me
I just cant take it anymore, I just want to spread my wings and be free

Your child cant take it anymore, she doesnt want to disappoint you and give back the gift you gave her that is called "life"
How could your child use this gift when she doesn't even feel alive?

The sad thing is that some people dont understand and they see you but dont do anything about it
So I am tired of this game so I just wanna quit

Please help me....please

If ever you need
an instant reminder
of your mortality;
cast your eyes
toward the night sky
and gaze upon
the endless stars.

You put the life between your teeth,
the tip of your tongue brushes gently against it,
and draw a breath.
Reaching ******* and pulling it out
you look at the life,
with it's burnt edge and crumpled paper wrapping.

Watching the smoke unfurling slowly,
you contemplate leaving the life like this-
in the safety of your fingers,
away from your ever threatening mouth,
******* out all the life that is your life.

You decide against it
and slide the life back past your lips.
Breathing in, you can't help but smile,
a small,
weak,
tired smile.
You tilt your head back as life fills your lungs,
as it pumps through your veins,
diffuses into your cells.

It's smaller now, feebler.
A few ashes break away from the lit end
and glide downwards,
caught in a gust of wind.
Softly,
you press it against your lips,
dragging on your life.

I sometimes want to run away,
Not from anyone in particular.
Everything.
I feel like I took my time to enter this world,
Then I started running thinking it had left me.
I should've been still by the mountainside,
But I chased puddles down the waterfall,
Maybe I am Jill.
I'm trippin on life.

It's only almost 11 o'clock
This is late for me
But I can't sleep
My eyes are tired but my mind is beyond awake
So I stare at my laptop screen
Trying to think of what to say next
He's already gone to sleep
And I'm left here thinking
He doesn't realize I'm awake for him
Contemplating words I should have said

I can feel the water behind my eyes
Wanting to escape
It's not that important
Not that big a deal
But all these other things came racing through my brain

I may be older but I still feel like a little girl
I can't handle much more
This is almost all that I can take
I wish I could talk to you
But you're asleep and I'm awake

You will always be my everything
I'm trying to do this right
But we're just so different
You and I
Still I always try
It just isn't easy
But if love like ours was easy
Everyone would have it

I probably won't tell you anytime soon
How much sleep I lose because of you
But the struggle and tears are worth it
Cause a love like ours only comes once in a hundred years

Contemplate life and it's painful experiences how every tear , heart break, disappointment has created the person you've become. Optimistic with pessimistic tendencies. People will leave you empty then ask for more. Kindness taken for granted with no sub conscious present of how ungrateful they've become to your kindness