Awoken on the isles of fear and sanity
Ive lost it all ;The sense of clarity
No anger ,contempt;Only a blind calamity,
Like myself are you a lost tragedy
Have i lost the colors to see
The black and grey is all i see
Despair, Distress ,don't come to me
Nor love ,Nor faith shall stay and remain
Nothing remains!Nothing remains
Ive lost the hope ,the light,the sun
Should i escape or Should i run
Far away where i wont turn
To joy ,To glee ,To hapiness at all
Running on thorns untill i fall
Is this the doom or is it hell
Is it the pit where i fell
Filled with pain Filled with grief
Sometimes long and sometimes brief
I would burn like a candle flame
Soon to burn out in ash, in embers
Am i monster or Am i a beast
Am i someone  you can not tame
Nor love,Nor faith shall stay and remain
Nothing remains!Nothing remains!
Far so long in this prison cell
In this fortress with no bell
Hearing the screams of my echoes
A damsel distressed on its toes
Singing her grief in an elegy
A sorrow A pain in this melody
The left paintings ,The untainted canvas
When you wept with sane madness
So paint this canvas with those tears
But make it sure no one hears
When left alone in that cage
In that misery when no one came
Nor love,Nor faith shall stay and remain
Nothing remains!Nothing remains!
                     __tsuki no ume.

Perched on a branch of tree
I a bird a sparrow or swan
In skies or lakes in every dawn
I a bird a crow or raven
Nor nest nor home for me had waven
I a bird with feathers with wings
In a Cage O' In a Cage
The world outside would seem to please
If a comfort a peace could put my heart at ease
Sure if i see tis' not a dream
Thou no foul play my eyes could see
Neverthless i hope to see a light of gleam
In this darkness In this cold
All those fantasies I would hold
I a bird with feathers with wings
In a Cage O' In a Cage
i believe no words what strangers say
A master A foe A friend you say
A bird to sing on a lovely string
Never rebel O' obedient prey
Angst nor fury nor feiry you say
Sing O sing a siren or tune
Under the stars Under the moon
I a bird with feathers with wings
In a Cage O'In a Cage
I aint a bird to fly to soar
The skies the clouds nor the thunders roar
My wings no longer can fly nomore
In this prison forevermore
Freedom O' Freedom Nevermore
No flights above the oceans shore
I a bird with feathers with wings
In a Cage O'In a Cage
Above the isles Above the castles
I aint a bird of a fairytale
Singing among the prince and princesses
Admist the gardens Above the balcony
Twittering chirping fluttering my feathers
Tis' is all a dream all a dream
I a bird with feathers with wings
In a Cage O'In a Cage
This darkness shall eat me alive
I have no key to open this cage
I know no magic nor im a mage
I see no light i see  no hope
Tis' a despair i have to cope
If i dream a home of love
Outside this cage beyond these walls
Would i meet the end of this grief
Like a sinking ship in a coral reef
Tis' would be a cage O' cage
Tis' rising angst rage O'rage
I a bird with feathers with wings
In a Cage O' In a Cage
             ___tsuki no ume~

I float in my raft of time.

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     ~~Each passing wave is all sublime~~

           ~~Each passing wave takes, all crime~~

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                              ~~­I bounce off these walls~~

                       ~~I’m confined~~

                       I start in the present

I am your past.                        I am your future.

I am last.                                          I am nurture.

                       I am on my last row;
                        For now, I shall go.
                          Darkness awaits
                                For none.

Thrown into a space,
dark, frivolous, and suffocating,
sealed, with air
stale and unrenewable.

With every second that passes,
the feeling of exhaustion
pulses and oppresses,
with contractions of despair.

I despair. In a burst of energy,
I hurl myself against some exit,
invisible, intangible.

Waves and sharp surges
of despair overwhelm me,
flooding my soul—
restless and energetic,
tired and drained.

I seek, restless, to find
some way out of this place.

But stone walls
only echo my scream.

The futility of my attempts
corrodes my hope,
but a tiny crevice
opens in one of the walls,
pierced by the light.

It rekindles what remains,
killing despair -
partially.

My fiery red heart is in the darkness
Its beat is suffocating, it’s almost breathless
As every second goes by, it slows easily
And with it every cell, every atom cries for help, warily.
It’s fighting so hard every day and every minute for its survival
But I can’t help but feel even demise seems like a better call;

Oh dear hands of relentless agony,
release my heart, return my sanity.
Oh great hands that own me,
return the good part of life ever so willingly.
I'll go along my way, away from you,
Away from this tension to anything and everything new,
Anything that’ll replace this suffocating pressure!
Anything that’ll release me from this trap laid for me to suffer!

Oh tight grips of confinement, please,
From this disgusting displeasure- put me at ease.
Allow me the privilege to feel anything other than this
TORTURE, SADNESS, PAIN, I beg- open your fists.

Oh Great hands that tugs my fiery red heart,
Return it to me before I lose all my colour to this dark.
I plead to you Oh Great Hands that possess me;
Open your fists, release your grip, gently put me down and gracefully leave me be...
For everything and anything outside your existence isn’t that bad.
I just want returned to me all the innocence I once had.

Oh Great Hands of unhappiness, what do you want from me?
Have I not given you enough? What more could you possibly need? Love, maybe?
But I will never love you.
I can never love you.
I refuse to ever love you.
Oh great hands of antagonizing pain,
I’ll never see the true beauty of this life if you keep me this chained.

What is that? Your words aren't very clear!
Tell me if it's right- the words that I hear;
"Oh my precious, it is you who is the beholder of this chain.
It is you who’s holding on to something without healthy gain.
These grips have long released you from this displeasure ,
Oh my darling, it is you who is refusing to be free, refusing closure!"

Oh Great Hands that had me, return and bind me into this darkness where we once played,
bind me to you so at least I have someone to blame for this weight that never seems to fade.
Oh Great Hands that opened their fists, hold on to me and take me away from this world,
it’s not as beautiful as I thought, take me away and hide me like a pearl.
I swear I’ll not complain anymore, I swear I’ll not fight you, I swear I’ll love you.
I swear I’ll love you and all the pain you come with ever so blue.

Oh Great Hands, I beg you, please save me-----

From myself...

-fir.m

Imprisoned in our drunken thoughts of escaping
Is there any single hope for changing?
If the moon is a friend for the lonesome to talk to
Then why does it say, there are no directions available to pursue?
I wanted to live a dream, he granted it for me
And yet, there is no time to spare
O you, lonely soul, are you melancholy, or are you in despair?
Words cut like a knife sometimes
But it pierces my heart instead
They say that the end is the beginning, and the beginning is the end
Will it even ever change?

The walls have managed to keep me well-aloof and apart
It was March just the other day
My prison cocoons me in the cool autumn wind
Not sure of what danger is out there
War, virus, riots and ****
It’s a crazy world, I am safe.
I question my safety now and then.
My sanity I question more often.

I twirled in front of my dresser
Posing for acquaintances
Smiling through the boredom
Of never-ending video conferences.
The strain is showing through
On threadbare patience
Straining at the slightest provocation.

The glaring screen tempts me  
Into one last indiscretion
Of unreasonable outrage.
Elections, propaganda and
Undeserved praise
Who is worthy? You say.
Valid question.

The stench of my stale room
Reeks of carbon dioxide
The air around me
Threatening death
Inside outside
Masks always existed
Now they only cover more
Not just your intentions
And it is fine; Nightmares
Are better hidden

My prison cell comforts me
And I get accustomed
To the confinement
Of my own house
Months have passed
Days are passing
Minutes seem longer now